Misfit
Sometimes I feel like I don't fit in. I've been feeling like this too much lately. I've been feeling like the confident girl who started the year out feeling ahead has now fallen behind. I feel shy around my own friends. I spend a lot of time doing alone sort of things.
Its like the me from highschool is coming back with a vengeance....
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Sometimes I feel like I don't fit in. I've been feeling like this too much lately. I've been feeling like the confident girl who started the year out feeling ahead has now fallen behind. I feel shy around my own friends. I spend a lot of time doing alone sort of things.
Its like the me from highschool is coming back with a vengeance....
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I've Given In
and done two things. The first is I joined Facebook, the glorious online yearbook-meets-myspace where I can look up all those people in high school I remember but am not close enough with to stay in touch. When I saw with horror that many of my sweet innocent friends from 8th grade had gone to so-cal schools and befriended sorority girl skanks,...
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and done two things. The first is I joined Facebook, the glorious online yearbook-meets-myspace where I can look up all those people in high school I remember but am not close enough with to stay in touch. When I saw with horror that many of my sweet innocent friends from 8th grade had gone to so-cal schools and befriended sorority girl skanks,...
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lessthanthree:
i love the oc! hahaha, you do to!
and congrats on being "21" come drink with me and ron.
i miss yoU!!!
and congrats on being "21" come drink with me and ron.
i miss yoU!!!
deusexmachina:
how did your birthday manage to escape my notice??...so sorry about that...happy belated birthday. I turn 22 in about 5 months, I'll let you know if it is really as bad as they make it out to be...but in my opinion nothing is really as bad as the 19th...no longer 18....not even close to 21...so sad.
ps. if you have any burning OC questions, feel free to direct them my way...I gave up being ashamed of my watching that show a while ago...
ps. if you have any burning OC questions, feel free to direct them my way...I gave up being ashamed of my watching that show a while ago...
V-Card
So I'm no longer a valentines day Virgin with a capital V, I got my first romantic vaentine EVER this year, from the fabulous ♥ Boy ♥ I just wish he coulda got mine in time.
Alohra and I made cute valentines, that was fun, and we had a small, all girl valentines day gathering, it was cute. ♥
I love sunny days, I...
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So I'm no longer a valentines day Virgin with a capital V, I got my first romantic vaentine EVER this year, from the fabulous ♥ Boy ♥ I just wish he coulda got mine in time.
Alohra and I made cute valentines, that was fun, and we had a small, all girl valentines day gathering, it was cute. ♥
I love sunny days, I...
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vampirate:
While I was in school, I formulated a theory that one was able to keep up with two of the following three things: schoolwork, social life, sleep. Later I realized that you could keep up with all three, just as long as you didn't go to class.
Ooops. Er. I mean, don't let that encourage you.
Ooops. Er. I mean, don't let that encourage you.
alohra:
I'm so glad that the boy gave you a Valentine. I like it when he does nice things for you! I'm sorry that you are having a crap time of your schoolwork. If you ever want to study with me, or take a study break to come and get cheered up, Kenneth and I would be happy to have you over. Read for Gorey Stories?
Mixed Feelings
Do you ever feel like you have so many feelings they just overpower reason? Its the sort of ambivalence that is about too much, rather than not enough, if that makes sense.
:robots: Here's whats happening in Absinthe's world today! (ie, the land of skulls and robots. Heh, that sounds like a DH Lawrence book set in the future. Rad.
Today (well sort...
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Do you ever feel like you have so many feelings they just overpower reason? Its the sort of ambivalence that is about too much, rather than not enough, if that makes sense.
:robots: Here's whats happening in Absinthe's world today! (ie, the land of skulls and robots. Heh, that sounds like a DH Lawrence book set in the future. Rad.
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triplesixer:
With all of those emotions poured in.. I serve you up a nice tall glass of huggs and kisses (from whatever boy you choose.) on Valentines Day.. Take care.
Chip
Chip
pumpkin:
po-mo...
well as a strict definable literary current (with a certain structure, goal, ideas, etc.) no, it really isn't something new. But, post-modernism as a "state of things" I believe will always be the current state, seeing as how post-mordernism has a lot to do with recycling (remakes, retro inspiration) or the showing of the form of the art (ex: ceci n'est pas une pipe: technically a surrealist piece, but terribly post-modern). In literature most books written today are post-modern in the sense of the abolition of rules, writing for writing like the philosopher Baudrillard, things taken lightly, in the second degree... and quite ironically enough, modernism is a part of post modernism since p-m encompasses pretty much everything today... so bassicaly p-m doesn't exist, or totally exists, no matter since an all encompassing concept is an absolute paradox, thus absurdity makes things real. And so, many believe that p-m can't disapear because it isn't truly definable anymore (yeah I know... I just defined it... see paradox) and you can't disapear if you can't be precisely targeted.
anyhow, let's be beautiful and shut the hell up. superficality is so profound
well as a strict definable literary current (with a certain structure, goal, ideas, etc.) no, it really isn't something new. But, post-modernism as a "state of things" I believe will always be the current state, seeing as how post-mordernism has a lot to do with recycling (remakes, retro inspiration) or the showing of the form of the art (ex: ceci n'est pas une pipe: technically a surrealist piece, but terribly post-modern). In literature most books written today are post-modern in the sense of the abolition of rules, writing for writing like the philosopher Baudrillard, things taken lightly, in the second degree... and quite ironically enough, modernism is a part of post modernism since p-m encompasses pretty much everything today... so bassicaly p-m doesn't exist, or totally exists, no matter since an all encompassing concept is an absolute paradox, thus absurdity makes things real. And so, many believe that p-m can't disapear because it isn't truly definable anymore (yeah I know... I just defined it... see paradox) and you can't disapear if you can't be precisely targeted.
anyhow, let's be beautiful and shut the hell up. superficality is so profound
things that are bad.
my man deleted his SG account. I mean maybe thats not bad since he didnt like SG ... but I liked clicking on my friends page and seeing his picture. Needless to say beforehand we got in a big apocalyptic fight and I feel like shit.
The Matches tonight is sold out. Its really hard for me to remember that they...
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my man deleted his SG account. I mean maybe thats not bad since he didnt like SG ... but I liked clicking on my friends page and seeing his picture. Needless to say beforehand we got in a big apocalyptic fight and I feel like shit.
The Matches tonight is sold out. Its really hard for me to remember that they...
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lessthanthree:
so much love. the matches down here are sold out. so no matches for either of us. <3
hope everything goes well with your man.
hope everything goes well with your man.
kelland:
Why did he leave? 
I am very curious.
[Edited on Feb 11, 2005 9:05PM]
I am very curious.[Edited on Feb 11, 2005 9:05PM]
Let Down Day
Yesterday was one of those days when I feel like I let others down inadvertantly. I get so guilty about things like that. Ever since I was a little kid I've gotten so guilty about stuff. I dont mean to do stuff like this, sometimes I wish I were just genuinely flaky so i didnt have to care. Then I would be...
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Yesterday was one of those days when I feel like I let others down inadvertantly. I get so guilty about things like that. Ever since I was a little kid I've gotten so guilty about stuff. I dont mean to do stuff like this, sometimes I wish I were just genuinely flaky so i didnt have to care. Then I would be...
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silvercharmer:
I know exactly what you mean. I wish I didn't care sometimes.
vampirate:
"quintessential"
I know how you feel. My mom is rad, but somehow she managed to raise me so that guilt seems to be my overriding emotion.
I know how you feel. My mom is rad, but somehow she managed to raise me so that guilt seems to be my overriding emotion.
Stories Etc
So Alohra and myself went to watch "Ropalion" (visit her journal for more explanation) and some other folks read their poems and stories and play songs. They were all really tanlented. I think about the things that come out of people - their words, their emotions, their desire for spiritual understanding - its just really intense. It made me feel like I'm not...
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So Alohra and myself went to watch "Ropalion" (visit her journal for more explanation) and some other folks read their poems and stories and play songs. They were all really tanlented. I think about the things that come out of people - their words, their emotions, their desire for spiritual understanding - its just really intense. It made me feel like I'm not...
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agamemnoch:
Neat I just did my hair too. Long and spiky with blond highlights it actually came out really good. It's the first time I've got highlights. I love Tetris too, It's been probably a year since I have last played though. Maybe something that I should get back into. 
Also, just wanted to say hello.
Also, just wanted to say hello.
triplesixer:
Speed hump signals one to slow down
Yesterday Alohra and I had dinner with Al, dunx, and KTKate at the Delta. I was shy because they are a lot hotter and cooler (yes, its possible to be both at once) than myself but it was yummy and fun nonetheless. ♥Alohra and I always thought the Delta was a bar so we were happy that you can eat there and...
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adrock1212:
Hey.. I havent talked to u in a bit.. so hi and how are ya>]?
lessthanthree:
hello kitty comes to life and dances for you.
i just miss you.
hello kitty comes to life and dances for you.
i just miss you.
Why I love El Nino
Its hard not to be a little hopeful when the sun is shining. I sort of thought winters here would last forever and suck, but things are looking very California-esque outside my window. There are little buds and tiny flowers out. People are slowly starting to inhabit the front lawn.
If only my frolic-buddy was here with me so I...
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Its hard not to be a little hopeful when the sun is shining. I sort of thought winters here would last forever and suck, but things are looking very California-esque outside my window. There are little buds and tiny flowers out. People are slowly starting to inhabit the front lawn.
If only my frolic-buddy was here with me so I...
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chazstrummer:
I enjoy Valentine's day, but I never let anyone know it! 
lessthanthree:
i'm sending you a letter as soon as i can get a stamp. i miss you oh so much.
the trees in front of whole foods on telegraph are blossoming. it makes me think of you.
your file should be sent out tonight.
<3333
the trees in front of whole foods on telegraph are blossoming. it makes me think of you.
your file should be sent out tonight.
<3333
I had 69 comments on my last entry ...
You know SG is a good place when you get more journal comments on your birthday than when your set goes up. Thanks everybody ! It really made my day.
After 6 blissful intimate weeks of wonderful codependancy, both winter break and my Boy are gone. His plane hasn't even touched down in California yet and...
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You know SG is a good place when you get more journal comments on your birthday than when your set goes up. Thanks everybody ! It really made my day.
After 6 blissful intimate weeks of wonderful codependancy, both winter break and my Boy are gone. His plane hasn't even touched down in California yet and...
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searchinggaze:
I'm with Weetzie, get FLB's "Nymph," unless you have it already.
(I created a FLB group -- you might be interested in joining).
(I created a FLB group -- you might be interested in joining).
superstringboy:
i've been celibate for like... almost a year and a half now. and not by choice, which i think is just called uh... lack of mojo, i guess. celibacy as a word has to be a choice, i think.
anyway... im going to college in a month. so im sure i'll get laid. woot!
hah.
laters.
love gavin.
x fuckin' o.
anyway... im going to college in a month. so im sure i'll get laid. woot!
hah.
laters.
love gavin.
x fuckin' o.
i only have really strong friendships with women.
there are exceptions, but not many.
all but like three of my best/closest friends are girls.
i guess i feel like they understand me better.
but, if you need to talk about anything, drop me a line, aim me, or email me and ask for my number. its yours.
i really feel good when i am able to help people out.
and i've gone through a lot of shit in the past few years, so i have alot of experience with pain and dealing with shit in my own life.
plus you're a friend of a girl i know in real life! hah.
anyway.
later.
keep what i said in mind.
love, always.
gavin.