maybe. who cares.

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Perhaps I'm old and tired, he continued, but i always think that the chances of finding out what really is going on are so absurdly remote that the only thing to do is to say hang the sense of it and just keep yourself occupied.
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zombette:
Right back atcha
stillpipin:
Fleeing to Fla from where??? Tell me it isn't from the PNW!!! I wish you all the very best but to know you had been here all the while and I never came across you!!!

What it be

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Rehab was necessary. I needed to shake the spiders off and meet those broken people who i fell in love with a little bit. But now i have this fucking hole inside me the size of God and i am so afraid. I am afraid i am losing mind. No but i really mean it this time. Friday the 13th. I am flying away to...
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clumzydragon:
I may not know you or know about your life where you been, what you done , and what you have seen but I do know that I to am afraid. I am afraid to lose my mind also, afraid that I well lose the friends that I have made this year the first friends I have ever had, and afraid that I well never change into the person I want to be. But I well never stop trying to be who I want to be need to be so I can get better and you shouldn't ether. Telling from what you wrote it looks like you to are trying to change something in your life to and you can do this <3 . Again I may not know you but I would like to and I would like to see you get better to not be controlled by something or someone. If you ever feel like you need to let something off your chest then I well listen and not judge you in tell you fine someone that can help you out better then I.  Sorry for this being so long and for all the errors and if this was way out of line to you I am just doing what I would do for me if I was in your shoes.

The ultimate pop tart

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Its been too long. And sadly, i am having a nervous breakdown. On the other hand, i am blessed to have a fairy godfather who mailed me money for a plane ticket to florida. So. In a couple of weeks, i am going to florida. Why not? I have no responsibilities, no kids, no job, no loves, nothing to keep me here, i am alone...
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clayman:
I've had similar panic if you wanna talk
userno1:
 I have nothing to add but this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=praFGD51ih8  Have a good day!

Sunday Apr 04, 2010

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hmm. so many things have changed. and nothing at all has changed. pretty uninspiring, eh?? i've been having very bad panic attacks. i've had them before, but nothing; NOTHING like these. i ended up in the ER 3 times last week alone, my doctor and my other doctor (i have many doctors; but not as many as when i needed... er... more pain medication than...
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vivid:
Whoa, hey there stranger! You coming back around here again?
hurtenstein:
I hope so.

Sunday May 31, 2009

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tonight. 630pm. trent reznor. dave navarro. nine inch nails. jane's addiction. *prays* dear Jesus don't let me pass out or throw up or anything else indecent. must be calm. CALM.
this isn't working.
anybody have any xanax they can throw at me real fast??? biggrin
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code_name_ozz:
You have the most captivating eyes. Breathtaking.
ohdang:
Happy Birthday!!

Sunday Nov 02, 2008

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sunshine:
you should come back to cbus for the party this sunday. then you'd have some pictures to update your blog with wink haha
xo

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talamia:
I love your sets! smile

Come back darling!!!

Thursday Oct 16, 2008

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it was raining last night. that helps me sleep. i swear klonopin is a placebo.
yeah, sometimes i have insomnia. i used to take xanax for it. haha. can't do THAT anymore. so i guess i'll just do without sleep. sometimes.
that's one of the oldest forms of torture; you know. sleep deprivation.
*sighh* if it weren't for this sick obsession with the Twilight saga,...
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emma:
twilight = amazing
keely:
Hey foxy lady! It was great to see you, and walk around and shtuff! I hope to see you again!
xoxoxoxoxoxooxxxxx

Tuesday Oct 07, 2008

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oh my god. oh my god.
Elsie, where ever you are now, i am not crying for you. i know that you are no longer in pain, and that you are finally whole and healthy and well. i know this because i have to. i have to because otherwise i will go insane.
i hung out with you ONE time. and that was all it...
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brightredscream:
I've missed hearing from you lovely ♥
I hope all is well kiss
vonpink:
Such a sad thing indea. I wish I knew her she sounds like a amazing person

how ya doing? everything good?

Saturday Mar 29, 2008

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holy hell!! i finally got a video posted, guys!!!
three cheers for ME!!!!!!!!
YAYZ!!!
^-^
insert booty dance kiss
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the_boss:
*pokes*
Where iz U!?
wildy:
can we have some news from uuuuu! frown

Tuesday Mar 25, 2008

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HM. i figured out how to sell on ebay (i am a notorious packrat) and i posted 10-11 things that i thought would really go quick.
???
okay, yeah, i am a novice at ebay. i have bought stuff; but i've never SOLD. i am, truth be told, kind of terrified of being ripped off somehow and the things i am selling are really nice....
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_brody_:
Ahaha, I'm a packrat too. I have so much stuff I could sell on ebay, but I don't know the hows and abouts of it all lol
sugarspidersilk:
There's um, an SG group called "SG Sales" also (where I actually just purchased something from Vivid a few hours ago)... it seems pretty popular... you might give that a shot if Ebay doesn't work.
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