I admit I loved you

My love for you was like a storm.

It came on like a powerful force that couldn't be stopped.

I stared, amazed in all its wonder.

The rain fell, the thunder cried, and the lightning struck.

In the eye when it was calm I looked into your soul. But I didn't paradise, all I saw was destruction.

-CM...
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billpowerssr:
LIFE changes our directions at times don't falter you are doing GREAT !!! love this
waitformetoturnblue:
Your poetry is as good as it ever was.
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Oh 2016...

We had some good times and some definite bad times. We had a passionate love affair that was like a shooting star. It was bright, beautiful, and intense. It burned out though and just left dust at the end.

The beginning of 2016 I traveled the world. I wanted to figure out life...Who I am, Who I want to be, and why...
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legman:
HUGS!!!!!!
waitformetoturnblue:
What you're going through sucks, and I hate it that anyone ever made you feel that way. When we were friends so long ago, I remembered you as one of the kindest, most gentle soul around. While we haven't talked in probably 5 years, that has stuck with me throughout. It's that reason why it baffles me that anyone would break you. You are one of the brightest stars in the sky, one of the sweetest people. You've grown as a woman, and it's been a joy to see it unfold from afar. Just know that I always have cherished our friendship, and understand that we all move on to other things, but even though time has led to new and different, and exciting places, and, yes, heartache--we still love you here. Unconditionally. I for one will always adore you for your kind and gentle soul. Even if we don't talk again for another 5 years, I will always, *always* have your back. Keep your chin up, sugar. ❤
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Hey! What I've been up to...

Traveling Europe Currently...

My travel dates are below.

I'll be in Rome tomorrow and Barcelona immediately afterward. If you want to meet up let me know.

Other things I've been up to...

WATCH THIS VIDEO

https://youtu.be/HYInCQPLHQs

Dancing at Lucky Devil Lounge & Devils Point #stripparaoke

ALL MY NEW PHOTO/VIDEO SETS ARE ONLY
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bennym:
You are the best ☺ i missing You 😢
ericwine:
♥ you.
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The most valuable thing you can offer anyone in this life is your time. It's the only thing that is completely yours to spend however you choose.

Give it to those who you love, cherish, and need.

Sometimes all someone needs from you is the time you can offer them.

Remember to respect others time as well especially if they are choosing to spend...
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babel:
so true.
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My name is C'Hardoney... My mother gave me a unique name because she told me I was one of a kind. I'm a 27 years old woman living in Portland, Oregon. My whole life I've been drawn to the arts. I even was blessed with artistic talents. Not the drawing or painting kind... I wish I had talent like that. I have...
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ericwine:
One of the best blogs ever.  Wish I'd seen it sooner, which is why I hate the site redesign.  I'm glad to see you growing into who you want to be...becoming more who you ARE, really.   But I've known since 2007 0r 2008 that you were one of kind. ♥  Much love, C'Hardoney.   (Is that pronounced like "chardonnay?")
breeanna:
A great raw blog! Good luck on your next chapter.
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"We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness." #declarationofindependence #history #reallymakeamericagreatagaindontvotetrump

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dave4224:
Made me stand up and salute!!!!!
colincage:
Thank you usa for Toxic as Suicide Girl making the us Great again 😍💖
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Hey My Favorite Dirty Birdies!

I'm just stopping in to say a quick HELLO!

I want to make this blog short and sweet....

Because pictures are worth 1,000+ words! I started my newest Summer photo project #toxicsrecreationproject2016 is a project I'll be doing throughout the summer. I'll be recreating shoots and events in pop culture that inspired my sexuality and helped
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mattonehsk:
Wow @toxic You're stunning and your ink is Sooo Beautiful!!! I remember back in the day when you were starting the flowers on you right arm...Awesome hope everything's peachy 😊
colincage:
I love everything in this photo the hair the setting the photo the bodysuit the booty the tattoos just amazing 💯❤️
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The light is at the end of the tunnel...The adventure is ahead but the destination is unknown. I'm not afraid, in fact I'm intrigued. I just need to know do we go forward together or do I travel alone?

photo by Matt McLean

NSFW photo and set will be available exclusively on my Patreon.

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royal:
Babe! You get better and better as you get older, it's awesome! 
darryldarko:
hopefully for you and me both
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^photo by Alejandro Bocalister

Oh-Hi-Oh My Favorite Dirty Birdies!

It's been a mad minute since we last chatted! I've been a busy bee as usual! I've been traveling most recently and am now back in PDX for a bit! So I guess it's a good time to catch you all up on whats been happening lately in the life of Toxic
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zhadowch:
What a view. Looks delicious. 😄
bennym:
I love your body and your feet too 😍👣
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My dirty birdies...I've been doing much self reflecting lately...

"Imperfection is beauty, Madness is genius, and it is better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."

...One of my favorite quotes said by the legend Marilyn Monroe herself.

This quote always spoke to me. Growing up I was picked on sometimes for being the "weird kid." Referred to as a spaz, talked way
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sega61524:
Nice to know about you so much interesting! Learn new things about other countries. Recognizing their mentality. Thank you delishsya us this! We love you so cool and crazy girl! Love you, babe! Many hugs!!!
dcollector:
Hail Megatron ✌