sydni

last night was bad. very bad.

everything will be okay, right?

My head hates me. It doesn't want to be happy. It wants me to be alone, away from everyone and everything, meditating and generally aleviating the feeling of wanting to be a bitch all the time.

I wish there was a way to retreat. Cuz right now i don't know how to have anyone around me.

Working at the bad juju/ nuemos is awesome. Seattle kids should come see me!

I have no days off till sunday. And then I have a date with a girl.

My fiance bought me a harness....It's so pretty! He knows just what to get to make a girl happy....

This is like my 13th day straight of working of something. Ick.

snoochie bootches!

I need to make some personal changes in my life and health.

So I'm thinking I should really limit my internet time looking at beautiful girls until I feel healthier. I've started to hate myself.

Which is a really bad thing when everything else is going so good.

So, I guess I'll see you in a bit.

xxoo
Sydni

Well, I'm a lucky girl. I found a job bartending at Nuemos. For those who don't live here in seattle, its a huge night club that puts on live shows about 4-6 nights a week, and it's open 7 days a week. My new boss is awesome, and there's no dress code. I even get to listen to the music I want when I work...
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well nevermind.

fuck me running.

My entire house is a wreck. It's putting me in a bad mood.

And Ideally, I would love to spend an entire day cleaning it....but I have no days off until a week and a half from now.

I start dance training this saturday. I don't think I've ever been this excited to start something new. And this opportunity is a double bonus in that...
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Well, I think I found a bartending job.
And I'll be training to be a dance instructor. Things are looking up.

fuck off.

I'm officially up to leave for LA.
I don't think I've been up this early in at least a year.
But my friends made me a ham sammich to take with me, so never fear....

all will be okay.

I promise to take pictures of my burlesque adventures, as I now have my charger cord back for my Rebel.

I'm hoping I have time to...
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Well slap me around and call me susan....

I'm going to LA to get mostly nekkid. And they're paying me.

My house needs to be cleaned and bills need to be paid.
I hate beer bottles, and yet, they seem to taunt me after long days off.

Yesterday was a beautiful day. Before I had to host karaoke. It was the most awful karaoke EVAR!!!.....this one lady, cane and all, seemed to think karaoke is reading the words before they light up all while...
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