del:
i hope you manage to find something that can help you, i'm struggling with things at the moment and spend a lot of my days almost in tears. wish i had something more constructive to say.
schmooziesan:
Sweetie, I wish I could help you so much! You deserve everything good and more and I just wish you could see it. Wish you never had to have those deathwishes again, and could just enjoy life! You can always find me and talk to me!
KUS
ticktockman:
I am sorry for your hurting, sweet Abbiss; I was there, once, too. I sort of...willed it away, I guess, but it would have been better had I seen someone. It will be better for you, too, to see someone. Whether it comes to involve drugs or not, please find someone soon to help you release this pain in a positive way. I am always happy to read what you have to say, but there is only so much any of us can say back. So go now and find a professional to help you, whatever it takes!

I commented on your new set with Lyvia, and it is pure love. The two of you and 2Shadowland made something special. Keep being special, Abbiss. kiss

-TTm
exkyu:
Abbiss, tu es trs belle, je suis inspire parce que toi et ton travail avec 2shadowland et Lyvia est trs magnifique. Nous t'aimons, et nous sont plus bons pour le sachant de toi.
tilpacer:
Admitting you need help is the first step. Now you just have to get some. Stick with that friend of yours. They seem to really care about you well being.

I hope you have a great day.
mssasha:
Big hug. Hang in there but you really need some help or see a thearpist before you get better. tongue
rickmitten:
make something out of nothing..
i love you
smile
otagix:
I know the feeling, this endless hunt for a way to stop the pain, even if it's a bad, unwanted one. The fear of losing control with medication. And the struggle to find enough confidence in someone to be able to talk about it, without fear of judgement.

For this reason, I think it's already a big step forward for you to be able to talk to your friend, and to write about it here. It may not sound like much, but it's something. A good something.

I'll leave some love on your beautiful new set, fully recyclable into good-mood energy.
rickmitten:
you are a beautiful person and shouldn't feel that you have to suffer alone..

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

some days are harder than anything to endure. but you endure them because you are meant to..
i feel like i am drowning sometimes.. like i want to kill myself.. but i don't want to die..
it scares me..
i have struggled with depression for ten years now and have only started talking to anybody about it this year..
it is the best thing you can do for yourself, share your shadows with someone..
talking about it is the first step to being able to cope..
having such a caring friend is such a great thing, especially one who will talk for you..
i think you need to confide in your parents ad help them understand what it is you feel..
the only thing they want is for you to be well.. it's the most important thing you have..

it's good to start to understand how you feel, and a psychiatrist or psychologist help with that..
they wont tell you that you are wrong or how to feel.. they will help you understand why and what you are feeling and can give you help on how to get better, get an understanding of yourself..

it may not help at all but i think you are beautiful and dont deserve to suffer alone..
you cant live yesterday or tomorrow..
today is the only day we can make count..
all you have to do is get through it..
and there are people here who want nothing but that..

i am rambling.
but you dont know how happy you make the people around you.. if you could make yourself that happy then i think you would understand the importance of yourself..
you are loved and deserve to give yourself the best chance of living life every day.. today..

remember that you dont have to smile all day.. just every day..



sorry for the long message but it's hard to write what i think sometimes..
you are loved..
kiss
remj:
Patience with crap is a difficult skill to develop. Why would one want to put up with it, instead of just not experiencing it? And yet that's how I get by. Maybe it could work for you, I don't know.

Talking about it with others can give you a different perspective - you're still in charge of living in your own skin, so take their comments with reservation. I had a futility chant, trying to get through an awkward...well, more awkward... part of my life "It doesn't matter any more." It's not exactly healthy - convincing yourself that everything doesn't matter seems like a step the wrong direction. I used it sparingly, and over time realized that the negative parts didn't matter, you just survive them. The good parts are the best, and don't need avoiding.

Find your passion and live your life as you can, the rest will sort itself out.
doontheloon:
I don't know you really....but I read your blog and I just wish you the best. You're way too beautiful to fade away like this. good luck with everything.


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tatertot:
Thank you sweetie!

I believe you should take this slowly, finding someone you can trust may be difficult but is not impossible, be firm and clear always kiss
darksong:
You have so much going on for you that your feelings seem to indicate a temporary chemical imbalance. Please get help before you hurt yourself? Maybe find out which kinds of therapy are available in your area and research whats involved in them and choose one that's suited to you? Don't just think about yourself in this either. You are very important but consider how the other people in your life would feel if you killed yourself. Please try to be strong and do the right things.
78walk:
You're such an intelligent young woman - you already know all the arguments I can make. I think the main problem is that while we're young, it's very difficult to have the perspective and distance from oneself that comes with time. Your life is not going to turn out exactly as you would like it to - nobody's ever does. But it can be an extraordinary, thrilling journey, if you can just allow it to unfold naturally. You have a stunning array of assets that will allow you to do many exceptional things - you just haven't quite figured out how to use them all together yet. And I think you also feel a certain sort of pressure, just from the awareness that you have these gifts. One thing I can say from personal experience is that many things that seem unlikely or impossible to you right now are not at all beyond your reach.

I don't know whether you ought to seek out professional help - in some cases it is beneficial and in others, not. Either way, the path your life will ultimately take is in your hands. I believe you have a tremendous contribution to offer the world. I'm very hopeful that you will find the wisdom and courage to look forward and forge your own unique path.
nikonphoto80:
I understand you and I think your serious, I do think that a psychiatrist can help you, my best friend was going thru a lot of the same feelings, she went and saw some one and after a while they put her on some meds and now she feels so much better, good luck, if you need anything Im here for you.
vonpink:
*hug*
palla:
I wish I could help you more but the only thing I can tell you is go to see a psychiatrist...please. A therapy and medicines can help you!
A very big hug
brotherheathen:
I was having some issues and went to see a professional. He helped. He didn't wave a magic wand and make life better. He didn't prescribe a pile of medications (because in my case I didn't need them). He DID give me some tools to help me cope with my issues better -- mental exercises, ways of looking at things.

If you were here, I'd take you to him and let you meet him and decide if he'd be helpful.
Since you aren't, and I can't, I highly recommend going and meeting with two or three folks and seeing if you can find someone you can trust and work with.

With one "solution" being very permanent, there is no harm whatsoever in trying a few others just to see if one works well.
doherty:
It is really hard to get the mind free. Reading books or watching movies ctually depresses me even more. maybe some kind of a sport? Do you like running? My bf says it makes the midn clear. I am too lazy to do it and I have no energy but maybe it works for you?
squee:
Hold on and look after yourself, usually the worst times in life are followed by the best! xxx
bloo:
Si seulement je pouvais t'aider un peu... j'espre que tu t'en sortiras.
Ne quitte pas ceux qui t'aiment en tous cas..je sais de quoi je parle. C'est dur pour ceux qui restent. Aprs, je comprends que tu aies envie de penser toi..
Bref, c'est hard... Chui l par email au cas o..
Courage oxox
ilsa:
Are you feeling better today? I'm worried about you kiss
twelve:
I know exactly how you feel. Sigh.

It's spelled "dying," by the way. smile
turbulence:
sorry ... not much good advise there, well between the lines ... *hug*

PS: yeah it's my favorite set of you too.
coccinelle:
your newest is wonderful! i want it on front page noooow kiss