Hey, just stop. Stop self loathing. You seem to have quite a fan club that have not only met you on the net but in real life that think you are the bees knees.
It's a cycle I've never beaten either. It travels from looks, to talent, to ethics, to anything else that comprises me. Everything gets a turn in this cycle of love and loathing. I sometimes blame hormones, but that's a cop-out. We'll both figure it out someday...
This decision has nothing to do with how dreamy Anderson Cooper and Jack Cafferty are.
Yeah, ups and downs. I am very familiar with that, although body image issues haven't been a part of my cycle of self loathing turning to "I am awesomeness".
About the self-loathing....this doesn't go away overnight. I honestly think some of this discomfort with yourself may be due, in part, to changing and growing up....It may be time to do a bit of closet cleaning and time to invest in a couple of new pieces which show your fabulousness instead of hiding it. I find whenever I have major self-image mood swings it's usually because my style no longer suits me. Could be my haircut , clothes no longer fit right, my taste has changed, etc. When I see you....I see an adorable girl/woman who sort of downplays her vampiness for a casual girliness. Which is very nice, don't get me wrong, but I think you could actually be a total knock-out if you wanted. You have such beautiful pale skin, a lovely womanly shape, great face, and especially gorgeous neckline, bustline. I sort of see you like a cross between Janet Leigh and Marilyn....with your own brand of quirkiness thrown in.
You have a retro starlet/sexy librarian beauty. Were I to style you, I'd have you in...well, I have a lot of ideas in this area but don't want to be presumtuous. (I have a fairly extensive and profit making knowledge of fashion, no boast.) I think a few quality (and not necessarily expensive) additions to your basics could step things up and also enhance your self-image. I think you're unhappy with yourself because you realize you have a lot, you see the potential, but don't feel you're meeting those expectations. You think you need to lose weight....I'd say "No you don't!" You just need to tweak some things to make the most of what you've got. Banish anything that makes you feel troll like!! It just ain't worth it. Donate it to a women's shelter or something. Keep the things that make you feel special...and add a few key everyday pieces. I could go on....
Well your beau is very perceptive. I totally see you in Eve Marie Saint's soft pretty black suit with that gorgeous scoop necked blouse as seen in North By Northwest, and a softer version the that formfitting gray suit that Kim Novak wore in Vertigo.
what's up, buttercup? i've been busy as hell because we're at the end of the quarter and turning in portfolios and projects. this weekend i have to put together my pastry portfolio and finish my report on vietnamese cuisine. thanks for taking the time to stop by. back at you soon.
Here's a wonky little exercise: think about all of the very important ways that you and I, in fact, do not know each other. Now, consider my following "confession:" I thought you were hawt from the get-go, prior to all verbal communication directly between us.
Of course, the opinion is worth what you are paying for it. The flip side of that coin, however, is that even if I sincerely believed you were just attention-whoring, I would still have laid all sorts of this sort of stuff on you anyhow: (next one is my personal favorite)
By which I mean to say you're lovely. Do remember, after all, Princess, that a lot of us have seen the better part of your bruised-up bum...
that beach looks very familiar.
(next one is my personal favorite) 
Hey, just stop. Stop self loathing. You seem to have quite a fan club that have not only met you on the net but in real life that think you are the bees knees.