So. Yeah. I auditioned for a play a week ago. I thought I did pretty well. There were things I would have liked to have done better, mind you, but I was happy with it. I got a callback. Awesome. The callback went pretty well, I thought, too. I read for 3 characters: the first one was alright, the second... Read More
Sorry you didn't get cast. And sorry that is troubling you so deeply. I do hate the experience of everything in life seemingly falling into place for this one thing...and then that thing doesn't happen. What the fuck is that all about? Is god (or whatever) fucking with me!?! Some deities somewhere having a laugh at my expense! Spiritual folk might say these moments are a cusp of great learning, but i've always missed the answer.
Anyways, if you really need to do this, acting/performing, you'll find a way. Maybe thru a backdoor that saves you from the auditioning process? That's how i've crafted my little performing world. Hate auditions.
Good luck.
Took some extra hours and focus to make sure it could happen, but I turned in the vacation request today.
This will be the first time I've been to Vegas "for real". Going down there for a friend's birthday thing. I'd been there on a couple family road trips when i was like...10...and... Read More
Was going to go to Finn McCool's, but there's no school tomorrow, which means it would be super crowded, and filled with frat guys. Blech. Did that last month when there was a Monday holiday and that was just way too annoying. Was playing some cribbage with friends, and a group of frat fucks were hovering over our table, farting in faces to try and... Read More
Depression sucks. I hate how it just kinda lurks in the background, always kinda there, at least tolerable most of the time, but sometimes just leaps out of nowhere, in your face, like a hobo bothering you on the bus while you're trying to read. And I hate how it always brings me to the same thoughts about the futility of relationships. And no,... Read More
Are you saying that your naivety from youth, was that relationships would last, or that because of your naivety you could suspend reality long enough to have a relationship?
There's a general guess that life itself is futile. You're born, you will die. And as there doesn't seem to be a universal, absolute truth on what one must accomplish...well, what's the point?
Rather than have that exist as a negative...ah. There isn't just one answer. I will enjoy what I have right now. I can enjoy what I've had in the past, and I can find some joy in my future, as there is no absolute. Everything that you do (or happens to you) can be viewed as a positive. Comfy!
MAJOR Pic dump from my camera. The last 2.5 months worth. I'd copy the post from LJ, but the html tags don't work the same on this blog system. So, I give you a link to the LJ article to save time.
Look! A Blog! Woohoo! I'm so overjoyed to have a Blog entry, you just wouldn't believe it. Bloggy, blog, blog. Blog!
To be honest, I haven't really been using this feature, because any blogging I might normally do is usually done over at LiveJournal, which I\'ve had for a damn long time, like 10 years. LJ has the additional bonus of being checkable at work,... Read More