I day dream a lot. I haven't decided if that means I'm happy with my current state of affairs or not. In any case, part of my day dreaming reflects on things that happen in my day to day life. Somehow I can express my feelings so well inside my head. Turning my thoughts into words proves to be very difficult. You might say I suck at words. I'm a terrible writer. Maybe it's because I don't do it very often. Maybe it's because I didn't have a great education. In any case, it's very frustrating. The words are right there in my head but I am no where near a writing utensil or paper so I never get to jot it down before it slips my mind. Stupid having to drive places. That's when it happens. Sometimes I think I spend too much time reflecting on my life. Am I too self aware? Magic 8 ball says yes. What I keep trying to tell myself is to just go with the flow. And carry a pen and paper whenever I go somewhere.
ammo:
being self aware is a good thing in my book. But I think I know what you mean... when you have down time and you end up over thinking things. And my inability to express what's in my head has gotten me in trouble more times than I can count.