older one I found:
You snuck your way into the corridor, I saw you there, indifferent to the threat you carry. I let you linger as I watched from my lackluster corner.
Slowly you sauntered my way, and I failed to flee, I failed to resist, I failed to put up a guard, and allowed the security of my mind be breeched.
You saw, you wanted, and without concern for anything else but your new fixation, you edged closer and closer into the forbidden.
Excitement -guilt, desire-guilt… interchanging.
What I want, what I shouldn’t want, what I should choose, but what I keep choosing over another, for you.
Dancing on lines, I should never step so close to, with holding, but wanting to give in… you encouraging more.. begging for more, forcing for more.
A breathe, a near touch, and retracting.. .reacting.. pushing away. Only to unexpectedly collide again around the next corner.
I gave you barely anything, but it all becomes so clear when a new fixation comes into view, you treat me just like all the others, and once again I’m nothing but a fool.
You wormed your way through my mind, creating tunnels of emptiness that should never have been invaded.
Now I see you clearly, for what you truly are, and I see the ugliness inside of you, and the ugliness inside of me.