I am usually a very happy and bubbly person at a first glance. I do like to come accross as a very happy, non problematic person, however we all heard that often the happiest people are the saddest and loneliest people. Unfortunately it’s very accurate about me. I do get very depressed especially at the end of the year when days are getting shorter and we don’t get as much sun, as I said in one of my previous bloggs I tend to get an artist block which makes me feel very unproductive and feeling bad about myself which works even worse on my mental health. However, this blog is not about how bad I felt but this time it’s about how good mentally I feel currently and how proud I am of that. I finally feel like am coming back to myself. I feel better about myself, my appearance, my art, my family, my relationship, my friendship and just everything around me in general. The reason why I feel proud is because I struggle with getting out from a depression and once I do manage to feel better I feel like I reached a milestone.
Getting up in the morning and going through usual morning routine again started being enjoyable. Putting a make up on and generally making effort in putting up outfits and hair styles usually is my thing but when I feel down I drop these out and barely do any basic daily human tasks.
I feel better, I feel inspired as fuck ! And I genuinely feel happy and lucky to be alive.
Sorry for the cheese.
Love,
Paulinki xo
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