Stomache problems, paint covered hands, black on black, and hypertention.
Im going totally out of my mind. Here I am stuck in this small one bedroom apartment full of my ex-girlfriends clothing and smell. I have a cat thats in heat that is that is taunting me with her calls. I dont have a car right now. My friends are all with thier significant others or "taking it easy cause today is kinda like a sunday you know man"...
I am really not into being alone right now. I want to ask a girl to come over and watch a movie with me but I dont know any girls that I think might be into that and I dont even know how I would go about it with out sounding like a nervous wreck which would possibly imply that Im coming onto them. I feel like I need that soft company, that calming company of a female does wonders for me. The eye contact of a woman puts me into another place and time. It doesnt need to be a romantic/lustful/flirty thing it just is the way it is.
I know that alot of the way that I feel right now is because Im still working through the breakup, but that doesnt mean that its not valid. I want to be able to sit on my couch next to a girl and be able to breath deeply, to breath calmly, to breath in that slow feminine aire.
Maybe Im just a sappy romantic, maybe Im a fucking baby, maybe I have no clue what Im typing about and maybe none of you even care. This is a hard place to be right now but Im making it through with the occasional freak out. Today sucks.
Hunger, routine and shortened work week. Three cheers for the laborist!
Tomorrow starts the work week back to the cut and dry cut and paste copy cat corporate slave death sentence. back to the 9 to 6 "how may I help you" loan proccessing, social security number checking monotony. Im dieing here guys.
Im going totally out of my mind. Here I am stuck in this small one bedroom apartment full of my ex-girlfriends clothing and smell. I have a cat thats in heat that is that is taunting me with her calls. I dont have a car right now. My friends are all with thier significant others or "taking it easy cause today is kinda like a sunday you know man"...
I am really not into being alone right now. I want to ask a girl to come over and watch a movie with me but I dont know any girls that I think might be into that and I dont even know how I would go about it with out sounding like a nervous wreck which would possibly imply that Im coming onto them. I feel like I need that soft company, that calming company of a female does wonders for me. The eye contact of a woman puts me into another place and time. It doesnt need to be a romantic/lustful/flirty thing it just is the way it is.
I know that alot of the way that I feel right now is because Im still working through the breakup, but that doesnt mean that its not valid. I want to be able to sit on my couch next to a girl and be able to breath deeply, to breath calmly, to breath in that slow feminine aire.
Maybe Im just a sappy romantic, maybe Im a fucking baby, maybe I have no clue what Im typing about and maybe none of you even care. This is a hard place to be right now but Im making it through with the occasional freak out. Today sucks.
Hunger, routine and shortened work week. Three cheers for the laborist!
Tomorrow starts the work week back to the cut and dry cut and paste copy cat corporate slave death sentence. back to the 9 to 6 "how may I help you" loan proccessing, social security number checking monotony. Im dieing here guys.