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ok so i need to update once again.
Im done , im done, im done.

kiss to all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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applerecords1251:
I am in school for xray right now. I plan on continuing to move up the medical ladder, but this is a nice first step.
codemonkeym:
No, no, come back here! We weren't done yet. wink
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Wow. The past few weeks have been pretty tough for me. I have experienced so many emotions my brain didnt even know what was going on. Finally i am thinking much clearer. whew kinda scared me a lil. Not completely clear but i feel myself calming down a bit. I actually feel like eating again and my usual "I luv to sleep" mentality is slowly...
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bean:
Actually, I was thinking of hitting up the Burgundy Room tonight, but I'll wait to see what everyone else is up to. I'll probably be home around 10-ish, but I'll give you a call and let you know what I'm up to either way.

kiss Don't worry, everything really will work out.
themadking:
I hate being the DD. It makes me all mopey, and then I'm no fun. I'm very little fun, anyway, especially since I hate clubs, but being the DD makes me extra-not-fun.
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what doesnt kill us will only make us stronger.................................................................................right? whatever confused

what doesnt kill us makes us depressed!!! blah!!! puke
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bean:
You guys are coming out this week right? ...because LTrain & I missed you two last week.
bean:
Yep...thursday. I'm not 100% sure we'll be going to the same place...depends on whether the under 21 kids are coming. If they're not, I think we should really go to this instead, since we can go to the other place any thursday and this is like a special event and whatnot.
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I am at a loss for words....
frown frown frown frown frown frown frown
puke puke puke
mad mad mad
frown frown frown frown frown ...... surreal
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shal:
December sometime. You can help me celebrate my birthday!
faelynia:
sorry to hear about the end.


where you choose to go from here, is all up to you.

ooo aaa
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I feel wierd today. It never fails, this time of year makes my mind go all kinds of crazy. I cant figure it out.
I do know that I have a lot on my mind so maybe thats why dont feel so comfortable in my own skin lately. This needs to go away though. BLAH!!! puke
I think part of this wierd feeling come from:
I...
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rawr_ima_monster:
sleep is for the lame and boring.
-oh dear god I wish I was lame.
Dave
shal:
The present I bought yesterday is something fun to play with. biggrin
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I dont know about u but my halloween sucked. Im not even gonna bother writing about it cuz im trying to forget all about it. Well i guess the last half of the night was better but technically it wasnt even halloween anymore once we reached our second destination. All i gotta say is ninjastar on the drums made my entire evening love
Im stressing about...
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jasonxstar:
Ohh you double poster..grrrrrrrrr heheh so yah when are you girls going to come up here and cover me with licks and kisses?this month?well tell ninja much love and to call me ya know...
love ya kiki
GPK
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Don't you hate it when you have this feeling about something and you know what you're thinking is right on.... but you question yourself? Every time i question what i feel about something or somebody it's always something i dont really want to be true. People really cant be as evil as i think they are?! I've sworn to myself time and time again to...
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trilobyte:
Look - a new set!

The Maxx - Missing Package

skull trilo skull
missexit3:
I relate too well to the over analyzation of things. Unfortionately the thing that keeps me most sane is to not think about it. I realize that is a terrible thing to suggest to another person. But I've found recently it's what works for me.

I used to obsess over things in my head that i had absolutely no control over. and decided i didn't want to spend the majority of my time frustrated anymore.

It's not that i don't care anymore...i just notice when i'm acting a little crazey about something, and decide if it's important enough to continue wearing myself out...or if i need to stop.

Oh, and there is no way to stop the questioning of yourself. I do exactly the same thing. I start to think of something, than of every possibility, how i could be wrong or right. but never come to a conclusion...just keep things up in the air. I've decided it's because no one know whats really true, just what they want it to be. And i guess in conclusion that's what it has to be. what you want it to. how fucked huh?

good luck anyways...oh and if you figure anything out...be sure to let me know, yes?
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I saw Lost In Translation the other day with Ninja. It was such a good movie. You all should check it out. I got so much out of it but mostly it made me realize how much people settle and get comfortable when in all actuallity they are so unhappy with their lives -especially the person they chose to spend their time with. All i...
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jasonxstar:
sorry to hear your not feeling good,frown but yeah it would be great to see you and ninja as well, i never heard of peaches are they good?
hugs
GPK
bean:
smile Thanks. Tonight I have class, but afterward I'm totally up for doing something with you guys. I'll give you a call when I get out.
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life is so interesting. some moments all you want to do is crawl in a hole and hope that somebody covers it up so you cant ever get out , and other days you want nothing more than to go out and be alive. Today im having one of those "i want to be alive" days!!!! biggrin
Its also interesting that one moment you can be...
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olsen:
Haha, HI to you too!
olsen:
Haha thank you. I like naked pictures too! (Obviously.)
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this is ninjastar writing in kiki's journal to tell you what a dumb ass she is!! she is a member of this neat little site and couldn't even find the "edit preferences" link to update her journal!!! HAHAHAHAH! tongue anyway, i'll let her take over from here.
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im not a dumb ass. blush
anyway, i feel like shit. i keep getting hot and cold flashes and...
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brokenglassheart:
honey, i love you. i think that is all i can say right now. i love you wench!!
bean:
hey, give ninja lots of massages and help her relax a lot so you guys can come out for my birthday.
wink
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Things to do before I die:
-travel the world
-adopt a monkey
-live on a an island and run around naked all day
-learn more than four chords on my guitar
-learn how to sing
-fall in love
-live on a boat
-collect every sonic youth album ever put out
-figure out how to make my camera take really beautiful pictures
-get over my stage...
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bean:
Me? Organized? Don't be fooled, it's only an illusion. My to-do calendar is hastily drawn on the back of some junk mail, and I've only sort of been following it. My mom actually held me back in 4th grade because she didn't think I was organized enough to go on to 5th grade where they change classes. Truthfully, I wasn't. But doing 4th grade twice didn't change that. smile

Hell, I don't even have a list of things I want to do before I die...although if I had made one at some point, several of the things on it would've been crossed off this summer. wink
trilobyte:
Read about PoopyDave's adventures - then show him some love. And by show him some love I mean give him shit... lol...

trilo
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Life is good right now. It seems like everything is falling into place. smile I love the feeling of everything being just right, i guess its just feeling content. It's been a while since I've felt this way, everything was just all wierd and screwed up for a long while... yuck puke Now i just have to make sure this feeling sticks. I think it will be...
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ltrain:
good! when you notice things are falling into place.. that should definitely make you happy.
you both are very lucky!
keep it real.
biggrin
but i've puke since i've last seen you.

[Edited on Oct 05, 2003]
bean:
Hey...go back to chat. I'm there, I'm just working.