Last Saturday I had the absolute HONOUR to be the FIRST ONE to wrestle a true Deathmatch superstar here in germany: BIG fuckin JOE! And what can I say but only the best about him? It was a blast from picking him up at the airport to bringing him back there. The match was fuckin funny as hell, at least we enjoyed beating the living...
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bluenicorn:
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Well... yesterday I turned 42... Some may say it is the answer to all questions in the universe, some say they're old as fuck and I didn't even think I would live to this day because of reasons.
And as I have no friends anymore or the people who might do stupid things with me are too far away/only exist in my mind/don't even know...
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Hey there lovely, maybe crazy people!
I have the fuckin awesome possibility to go to England in about two weeks (primarily because of my work) and of course I laid the time to be there so that I could go to see some wrestling and as of now be a part of one the fuckin coolest wrestling companies in all of Europe! RISE: Underground Pro...
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...when I said I would love you forever and you thought it would only last as long as we were together?
These words from Bloodywood's song "Yaad" are always in my head and every damn day I think about the love of my life! My heart broke when my love Sheila passed away almost three years ago and this song captures the essence of how...
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Fun question, but maybe somebody knows someone who knows a girl interested in creepy bastards like me? Nah, just kidding, I'm not creepy, just fucked up, haha.
But which of my personalities would be likely to get a date? What do you lovely people think?
The ring announcer with the big belly? Looks like a fine gentleman, but says weird things. :)
Or the creepy
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I started playing this stupid game and I finished it already multiple times, sometimes even in one day.
But I haven't gotten any reward yet! Can anybody help me to understand this? Am I doing something wrong?
Right now that is the only take I can have on "dating". It's just funny how superficial people are, although it should make me sad. But, I somehow
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Today I realised (probably once again, but I am old and forget a lot ;) ) that the longest relationship I ever had was with my sweet furry angel (may she run free and happy) Sheila.
It's strange, but (apart of my family, of course) there are only maybe a dozen humans I have known for a longer time and probably only a hand full
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miloszbeardlove:
@bluenicorn Jup, andere "Abgänge" aus meinem Leben hab ich teils lockerst weggesteckt, wie Scheidung oder sowas. Aber dieser Verlust beschäftigt mich noch bis heute. Hab gestern nachdem ich schon seit Wochen so ein komisches Gefühl hatte erfahren, daß der Hund einer Familie ein paar Häuser weiter vor etwa drei Wochen seinem Krebs erlegen ist. Wollte die Dame erst mal fest drücken, ging aber nicht, weil ich mit dem Auto mitten auf der Straße stand. Und 15 Jahre... das ist schon eine kleine "Ewigkeit", mein herzlichstes Beileid.
samis:
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I know, nobody (or none of my acquaintances) give a fuck about my life or my mental health and especially nobody gives any fuck about my not existing "love life". This year pretty much everything is fucked up and several weeks ago I made the mistake to once again give it a try and open myself up to a woman I know and unfortunately felt...
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bluenicorn:
I don’t know if this is what you want to hear, but I’ll tell you anyways: First of all , you should change your attitude and way of thinking about yourself. And then you can start working on a relationship with yourself! I am 100 % convinced that you can only love someone if you love yourself .. and this means also that People can only love you if you love yourself! It sounds so simple, but I know it is so hard.. I’m still not 100% in peace with myself, but it is a process. And as long as you work on it and try your hardest for yourself, it is fine! Have a relationship with yourself, find your inner piece and love your self - you’ll see that people will love you too! Thank you for sharing your inner thoughts with us. And don’t apologize for doing so. Words straight from the heart are always valid !
Sex is all nice and stuff, but have you ever stood behind the curtain after EIGHT months and heard your theme hit the speakers? That is pure love! Well, it is for me, as it seems I am that kind of guy who needs to be fucked up to feel alive. Doesn't matter, had fun! ;) As I am now a part of the roster of IPW Germany, I took a flight to Hamburg, to go with them to Denmark and smash some stuff and bleed a little bit with a great guy called Chaos. Scared the shit out of some mama, but still had a great time and it felt sooo good, to get fucked up. :) I was even allowed to be a part of the rumble of the danish DPW and had to bring some hardcore to that table, too.
Today I received a great little package in the mail from the US from Eibon Press.
It's a bundle I ordered some time ago of a special edition of the comic book "Bottomfeeder" to which Dave Neabore from my first ever favourite band "Dog Eat Dog" has contributed the soundtrack.
I also got the soundtrack to the comic book "Zombie" to which Dave has also...
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... but sometimes I tend to think it's a bit of a pitty the weapon laws are so strict. Otherwise i would have already organised a gun and shot myself. No, sadly, I'm not joking... On the other hand it's (sometimes) an advantage you can't just go into a store and buy a lethal weapon. Still with the whole situation worldwide and in my miserable...
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bane1974:
first, if anyone here has committed suicide successfully, and answers,, the zombies are here. No surprise in 2020. Now, i have been, and still am being treated for severe depression and suicidal thoughts. A big help is just finding someone to talk to, honestly about how you are feeling. Holding it inside will eat you up. Drop me a message any time if you need to vent. I try to check the site multiple times day and night. Anyone can do that.
February 8th, marked the return of the Angry Butcher to IPW Germany in a 30 men rumble. God DAMN! It was fun smashing things in other faces and get smacked in the face by stuff... and it showed me once again a sad truth... I only feel alive and valid when I'm in the rind getting beat up, leaving bruised, battered and a little bit broken.
user0817231628:
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