I live a sedentary lifestyle of no real consequence. In other words I’ve resigned myself to the gutter metaphysically speaking. In other words I’m a slacker... there I said it!
It feels like hard work even to get out of bed and some days I don’t. I can put this down to my illness, but how can I know myself and what I’m capable of doing if I don’t push myself? And if I don’t, how will I ever get better?
I’ve made attempts at breaking free over the seven years or so that I’ve been in this situation but I haven’t stuck to any of them, I always go back to where it’s most comfortable/familiar. And so here I languish in my tomb.
I’ve made another plan, the hardest most difficult to date. I’m going to join a gym because I’ve put on some weight and go to an adult learning centre to wake my lazy brain up. It’s so debilitating to always be crowded by brain fog when you need to think on your feet and come up with solutions. I need to take action otherwise seven more years will pass and I’ll still be here wishing for a better, more tolerable life.
Has anybody got some words of encouragement? A pep talk is much needed as my spirits are pretty low after so much defeat!