I've been feeling so tired lately. I don't know if it's because of the strain of my troubled relationship, being overwhelmed by school.
I feel like I don't have time for my self any more. As much as I try to relax on the weekends with Tom, my mind is always racing at 100 mph. What I need to do once I get home, how much I could have accomplished homework-wise if I had stayed home. But then I feel guilty because instead of worrying so much I should be paying attention to the time that I have with him.
This morning I got kind of sad because I started thinking about memories. Probably because we're going over the process of memory in my psych class...but it's sad to think that I'll never relive the happy moments, and I'll never be able to truly convey to some one about how beautiful they were...
And then I started thinking about how much I've changed my family's dynamics these past 9 months...and wondering whether or not it was for the better. I wish I had more guidance so that I would have made better choices...but it's all in the past and I can't change any thing. It's so hard to forget...
I'm so scared of failing at every thing I do. I'm hoping this is just a down moment that I'm going through right now because it would suck if this became a long term thing...
I guess I'll do homework now to try to forget about this.
Byeeee.
I feel like I don't have time for my self any more. As much as I try to relax on the weekends with Tom, my mind is always racing at 100 mph. What I need to do once I get home, how much I could have accomplished homework-wise if I had stayed home. But then I feel guilty because instead of worrying so much I should be paying attention to the time that I have with him.
This morning I got kind of sad because I started thinking about memories. Probably because we're going over the process of memory in my psych class...but it's sad to think that I'll never relive the happy moments, and I'll never be able to truly convey to some one about how beautiful they were...
And then I started thinking about how much I've changed my family's dynamics these past 9 months...and wondering whether or not it was for the better. I wish I had more guidance so that I would have made better choices...but it's all in the past and I can't change any thing. It's so hard to forget...
I'm so scared of failing at every thing I do. I'm hoping this is just a down moment that I'm going through right now because it would suck if this became a long term thing...
I guess I'll do homework now to try to forget about this.
Byeeee.