I often feel like you do; most of the time, when it comes down to it. It feels like there must be some deeper core of being/existance that I can never reach, just floating around in some superficial void without substance.
Like, what I really want to do is write. So, why aren't I doing it all the time? The last novel I wrote was an epic disappointment the extent of which has pretty much fucked up my creativity ever since. Now I have ideas but no faith in them. I do little bits here and there but can really relate to 'more than anything, I'd like to have something worth committing to'. That's what I want more than anything too. I hope we both make it x
You shouldn't be so down on yourself. Most of the people who never shut up have nothing interesting say, that goes for a lot of people who write too. I often find people who lack confidence or self-belief far more compelling, they have a better handle on things and are acquainted with the fact that they might not be the centre point of everything. You certainly seem interesting to me
You cant be a bear 
