"Life is a weird shit."
I will live by that till I die.
p.s. the movie Gran Torino kicks ass!!
Ok, how about an actual post? Im approaching my last couple of days on here, and I need to let the flood gates flow a little...Im in that "Im tired of the world" kind of mood.
First! Some Good Stuff!!
that was taken at this weekends Yes Yes Yes Fest. It was a lot of fun, not only because the festival was a hit for being the FIRST annual ever!!! butI was able to show some of my art...
...andYoshimoto also got to play. We were a little under prepared but the crowd was good about it. Thats one thing about Yoshi, is that no matter how much we can blow...playing out of tune, breaking most of my drum sticks early on, the elements (We played in the rain..and nope! no one left/died) we really know how to perform. Im not talking about hair metal crotch rocket kind of performance, but the kind that lets the audience that were human too,and in turn they're able to connect...Post performance, we got interviewed by the local newspapers (the San Antonio Express!) entertainment zine...which was pretty rad. I felt like a big shot, because not only was it one of the only gigs that Ive gotten the group, but I was the one with the "connections" that got us the interview. Im really looking forward to reading it.
Ive been listening to A LOT of cursive lately. Mainly Domestica and the Burst and Bloom EP. I saw them a couple of weeks ago, and it brought me back to some better days. good stuff.
...."When its steady Im just acting out my roles. When your ready Ill be walking out the door."..
"When your selfless your so hard not to adore. When your selfish I just love you even more."....
so good!
So my ex/"first love" is getting married. I half feel proud/happy, half confused and half old. (not really too much of the last one. Mainly the first two)...
I seem to be getting notions from a lot of people around me that they know who I am. Im a pretty shy guy, (but not to the point of it being detrimental in anyway) and I usually follow codes of social common courtesy. So when people start making generalizations about my way of being, or anything of the sort, Its not hard for me to spot out. When People talk, People will listen, I suppose, but truth you don't know someone until you sit down with them and spend time with them. Its kind of interesting and flattering to a point. Sometimes its flattering for both parties but sadly, the "other party's" type of flattery is usually on the naive side of things. Oh well...Im going to try to take the high road on this, as I usually strive to do, but this seems to be pressing a certain button that I dont know if Ill be able to control for long. Ill see how it goes I suppose...
I cant fucking stand punk rock babies....you know what Im talking about!... those 2 year old little kids that have a mohawks and wear a "CASH" baby tee, maybe some 1 inch buttons on their diapers??....Maybe its just my mood right now, but doesn't that kind of seem like an extremely shallow attempt of self promotion?..Im going to feel like Im back in high school making this claim but i can hear them now..."Im so Punk Rock that my baby came out like this!! " DUMB.
and with a half look of disgust, half feeling a unfulfilled, and half of a smirk.
im out.
yes....
confirmed mauri!!
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