I look at myself in the mirror and I've grown to hate who I have become. I feel like a lifeless vessel. I'm constantly trying to be someone I'm not just to please the ones I hate. Myself three years ago would smack the shit out of my current self. The tears I shed aren't going to change what I've become, this ugly monster that feeds on approval of others. For once I just want a friend that actually likes me for me. I don't want to have to pretend like I'm fine anymore. I'm so tired of it all. For once I could really use you right now. I hate the fact that you left so fast. This broken doll could really use some winding up.
I'm not looking for sympathy, I just needed an outlet. I just wanted to be heard. Hope you all have a happy holiday.
I'm not looking for sympathy, I just needed an outlet. I just wanted to be heard. Hope you all have a happy holiday.