So this is a writing thing i used to do every like 6 months or so and skipped the repeats obviously to see what music meant to me, So ill do like 10 songs or so, And ill write a story behind each one of what it makes me feel and/or think about. Should be interesting now. Gonna skip songs that literally have no meaning to me whatsoever lol.
Song 1: Automatic Loveletter - Make up smeared eyes. Okay, Interesting to first get a song like this, Its very depressing, Its basically the music i listen to whenever im crying or feel like being depressed, sometimes i force it upon myself. This song pretty much encompasses every single part of my feeling after breakups and losses, It just hits me so hard, Im honestly on the verge of shedding tears now just listening while doing this, This song doesnt really have a specific person i think about like some people, It just kinda touches on all the love and loss ive experienced in my life. Very powerful for pulling my emotional chords.
Song 2: Hall of Fame - The Script. I dont know for this one honestly, This song gives me hope for a lot of things, This definitely doesnt make me think of anyone. But this song makes me work and try hard for literally anything I ever do in life, Its a happy song for me, It makes me proud of myself for anything I ever do. Not really much more than that, But it always brings me up if I'm feeling hopeless.
Song 3: Taylor Swift - A Place in this world. Aye, Interesting that the first one of the songs to remind me of yesteryears and the people of the past would remind me of my once friend Dani, She loved this song, She made me listen to this for the first time and said it described her life. Id be lying if I said it wasn't a good way to learn or that she didnt mean anything, But most of the people around her were the people who meant the most to me, But there were obvious periods of time where she was a wonderful person to me. Also, I love taylor swift. No judge though. :)
Song 4: Green Day - Fashion Victim. Alright Alright, This song means a lot to me because of a girl for the most part, Also Green Day was my very first concert, So the band and girl mean more than this song specifically. Green Day was my absolute love, for a short period after Linkin Park, and Before the Used. Like absolutely obsessed, I remember i had just moved in with my mom, and she would give us money for school lunch, I wouldnt eat school lunch, I would save my money and buy CDs lol. And Green Day got most of my money as i had to buy all their CD's, International Supervideos etc etc. They meant a lot to me for a long time, They still hold a place in my heart. Now then, The girl...Her name was Sarah, And we were good friends and she was good friends with my sister as well, This girl is one of the few girls that got away without anything happening that could have been, We would talk all the time, So many of the same interests, We would stay up and listen to love songs on the Radio together, It was a fun time, and i enjoyed it, I still to this day cant tell you exactly what happened to create distance between the two of us, But something must have happened, I dont really regret things, But...I still do miss and wonder what if sometimes. Ironically enough about Green Day, She had a friend who pretended to be Green Day on AIM I know AIM lol aging myself here, But it was fun while that lasted, But that was when i began my detective work on stuff and eventually exposed her :)
Song 5: All Time Low - Break Your Little Heart. All Time Low. What more can i say? They are the perfect example of what I enjoyed in music without being my favorite band. This song, Means Revenge. I dont touch much on it these days, Because I have since moved on, Grown up, and no longer desire to ever feel the regret thing as posted before. But for a very long time in my life, I would take up revenge on everyone who did me wrong, And it's safe to say I became pretty good at it, It's a nice little thing to be able to cross the line and just completely destroy someone emotionally and mentally. These days, I care way too much about everyone to ever do that regardless of what happens between them and myself. But I still like All Time Low the same. I went on their tour bus once when I went to see them down in Massachusettes years ago at an AP tour, Met a few pretty cool people when I was down there, It was interesting. Lots of good and bad memories alike with all time low.
Song 6: Secondhand Serenade - Maybe. Entirely Girl, Her name was Christine, And she was me, with a vagina instead of a penis. She was the closest miss I ever had, What i mean by that is, I had filled out all of my travel information and was only clicking the confirm button away from going to live with her in florida and start that chapter in my life but she told me not to at the last minute, And so that one never really took off, But secondhand serenade was a big part of my life when i was with her, and when i met her, So basically all of these songs remind me of her. She was that stripper I dated. But she was a massive dork and it was cute. So many What ifs, Im surprised I honestly dont have any regrets for doing things different and only wonder what would have been. Fine line between that and regret. I would say it means a good chunk to me though, Because we never ended on THAT bad of terms considering how most of my friendships and stuff ended back then.
Song 7: Howie Day - Collide. This one is a little different, Because this song reminds me of my Sister, This song was her and one of her boyfriends songs. She was a baby at the time (not literally, just for dating). And this song meant a lot to her, The reason it makes me think of Her when i hear it, Is because it was the first time I got to exercise my being a big brother rights, and put a guy in his place. It was the first time I think, that i looked at her like a sister i needed to protect sometimes and not just a bratty little bitch who always got her way lmao. So this song definitely marked a milestone in my life, Even if not as much as some of the previous songs meant. Family is always important to me.
Song 8: Bon Jovi - Misunderstood. So this song, along with a few other songs by Bon Jovi in this time period. The music videos spoke to me as well, There was once in my life, This is one of the only times I have ever wanted to be with different people at once I was young, and I didnt know what to do, But long story short, I flip flopped between both of them a few times in a short period of time and eventually ended up losing both of them, One to the flip flopping, the other one to constant fighting and arguing. Interesting story about the one i lost to arguing and such, She was the very first girlfriend I had in real life not long distance, Her name was Bryanna, And It was the greatest summer of my entire life up until that point. She was friends with my sister, That is how we met, She came to visit us one time to hang out with my sister, and that turned into laying under the stars, Wrapping my arms around her, Laying together on the carpet, Making out, Grinding on one another. Obviously at this point, Ive had better summers and done way worse and better things lmao, But when I was younger and that was the first time i got to experience any of that, I knew in my heart, and still to this day, Know that as long as a person can get past my physical appearance, Which Never against changing for the better :) , Being in person with people is the greatest thing I can do, Because despite all the fighting Ive done with my Exes, When i lived with them, It was the smallest of arguments and mostly just pure bliss. Im a romantic, And I cant stand to see another person crying, So if a person whom i love is crying, there is no arguing after that, I have no desire except to hold and tell them everything will be okay. My weakness.
Song 9: Skye Sweetnam - Tangled up in me. Okay, Im actually surprised this song popped up on a 1200 song playlist, But it fits well for this. The absolute very first girl I ever loved. Her name was Jeanice, And I met her on TeenChat. We were arguing with each other, But became friends, And would Email one another. Yes, Email, Not even IM, Just Email. Eventually, We started to IM one another, and things took off from there. She told me to listen to this song, She said it would explain her better because back then girls were confusing and complex and shit, Now they are all simple of course. But She taught and inspired me how to love. She is the reason im such a sweetheart when im in a relationship, Hell now im that way even outside of them, But She is the reason it all started. I remember the first time i told her i loved her, I actually wrote a memoir in school about it, because it meant the world to me. It was cold, Like November in the northeast of the US, Winter, Freezing. I had a phone card (yea those things to make long distance calls before cell phones were big) And i took out phone, and went outside on the porch, The sky was clear as day, It was sooo clear, tons of shining stars, I just remember looking up at the sky, And asking her if she could see the stars. I wondered if we both were looking at the same ones, even from being so far away. And she said she loved me back, And i just remember being so incredibly happy, Like Ive been really happy before, but i dont think anything is better than the happiness i felt in that moment. Maybe i have and it just became a more normal sensation but that being the first time really hit me hard.
Song 10: Cute is what we aim for - Moan. AHAHAHAHA Okay this song, Describes exactly what the name is, Back when i was in high school and shortly after, When i wasnt in a relationship close, and was doing the long distance thing, Phone sex was the thing, before like video and stuff was popular for that stuff. And one of the girls named Meressa (ironically enough I still talk to her) Has one of the best sex voices ever. So naturally I told her this is my song for her, These days it's not the same, but this song will never be dedicated to anyone else, no matter how amazing they might sound. But she liked cute is what we aim for as well, She actually sent me a T-shirt once, But i cut it up and burned it right before drinking a cup of laundry detergent. lmao.
Encore Song: The Used - I Caught Fire. Okay so...I cheated for this one a little. I just played a random song by The Used. If you are new here, And dont know me. They are my favorite band, This is my favorite song, and This is the inspiration behind my username, and my tattoo (soon to be multiple dedicated to them). This song speaks so many volumes to my life, It speaks on not wanting to be alone, It speaks on my romantic side in just wanting to be in bed all day sometimes with someone special, It also speaks to the fact I absolute love eyes. The music video also speaks volumes, It shows a lifestyle im quite familiar with, Being poor my entire life, I dont ever need money to be happy, I just want another human being in my life who i can enjoy the company of. I also dont need rich friends. I would rather be happy without money, hands down. This song has a much deeper meaning than just the surface and how it literally has kept me alive and prevented me from killing myself. This band in general, I owe my life to. This is a song, One day if possible, Id love to have play at some point during my wedding, If I ever have one. Id love to be able to dedicate this song to someone and it have meaning to them as well as myself. There was a girl once who I had hoped one day could have fit that profile, But she gave this song to another one before we even tried to date. I wrote a few poems from my deviant art about her. She was my best friend, And eventually she was more than that to me for a time period. When i was still a giant emo mess, She was the one constant thing inside my life that gave me joy and happiness, between her and the used and just it being our band meant everything. To me i didnt need this song, Because the used were just OUR band. everything about them was ours, I didnt need a single song with her, because every song was ours. Normally I talk about the inevitable end to us, and the bad stuff, But the good stuff still far outweighed the bad, even if the bad hit harder. She will always own a piece of my heart no matter what, This was the first girl I ever fell in love with. And she will always be cared about by myself. In love, and death. ;)
Alright so, We have come to the end, Just an overall thought. This music, Is all so very different from the song before it, And again it all touches on something different, Whether happy, sad, silly, erotic even. Its fun to do, Even expressing these past emotions and these memories, Im happy to be able to do things like this, It really gets me thinking and helps me just write more and stuff. Its great for removing blocks and everything else. Its a fun exercise..I know its a lot to ask it takes time and stuff, But...If anyone reads this and would do their own, That would be so cool. I would love to read things about what music means to other people...Music is amazing, And i know i cant be the only music person on this site....
As far as music is concerned, Two people come to mind that I've talked to on here....You girls dont have to, But I challenge you if you can find it in your day to do this. @hybrid @metal_gypsy_
metalgypsy:
This is so awesome! I will deceive it a go when I have some free time. Thanks love! 🖤💜🖤