twistedillusions

I talked to the boys last night.. Eric and Mike want/ and are planning on you to go, so be sure to call and find out when to meet them and such! Leave him a message if you dont get a hold of him!! Think you'd have fun with a mini holiday

okie dokie.... No coffee Monday, Im working.. maybe later in the week Have fun!!

na.. I was home last night, just asleep before you were

ok 1:30 thurs...

IF I can get up early enough I wasnt to go to Spencers..... Course Im just going to bed now, but Im trying!! So you should come with me!!!

lol

thats the second post frum you that's blank.. I cant read minds you know..lol

hehe... no I didnt get a hold of the car guy yet, he NEVER answers his cell Im not gonna have time to do mural stuff this weekend, maybe a quick coffee Sat. Im busy Fri, so I have to work Sat, then have a b-day party Sunday...*sigh* I never get to paint my murals!! I'll give you a jingle Sat, hopefully I dont sleep the whole day away, I sure feel like it!! Ihave to go to chapters, so maybe i could meet you at Chinook or sumthing? *hug*

well... my 5 year 'single' stint was my happest time, so I think maybe that's just the way Im ment to be. I've always been blessed with lots of wonderful close friends, so I should prolly just take that as a clue and be happy with it. Every time I get 'involved' with someone, I give up my dreams and goals to spend time with them instead of using the little spare time I have to do my stuff.. and so I never do my stuff and so Im not very happy, (doing stuff makes me happy.. lol) I cant find happiness 'in' sumone else. I dont think anyone can completely, but sum people can much more than others for sure.. when someone is your 'reason for being' thats all sweet and romantic, but never true for me.. I have a bunch of reasons or none. And its hard to find somone who can contribute a bit to that but allow me the space I desire, its like a long distance relationship....most peopple dont like that and I dont blame them....so I dunno. Whatever. Time will tell I supose..... It need not sadden you, I am how I am. Im not unhappy about it. I lack in lot of the desires most people seem to have, so it must be who I am. Im ok with that and I wish everyone what they want and much happiness, and what we want /mkakes us happy is different for many.. holy Im babbling!! Stupid Scotch!! I better get back to sewing hehehe..... I have to decide about the new car tomorrow... well ok, I decided, I just hope he'll take my offer..... ttyl!

not yet cuz stupid work didnt pay me on time again, so my whole life revolves around not daring to go to sleep so I can go down there as soon as the stupid ass gets there with my cheque so I can go to the bamk before everything bounces and so I can get money for the car.... she's gonna drive me to drastic measures soon.....

I am so glad you enjoyed the new Alexsandria Shoot. Check out my journal for behind the scenes.

sigh... todays the first day I've actually been able to shut myself in.... so much for a week of solitude!! But I have today and tomorrow and Im milking the hours for all I can...! see you soonish!!

new toy????

and I you darling... we must go for coffee or movie sumthing, just us.... Thanks for the treat last night.... it encouraged me to go wayyyyy over the edge. AND I think if someone wasn't still with us after Jerry's, someone else would have invited me up to her place..... Well I guess she kinda did anyway, but.....*sigh* I still owe you!!! Im going on 'holidays' for 3 weeks. Meaning no going out or seeing anyone because I have a years worth of work to do and have no self dicipline so Im cutting myself off frum the world...( and Im cat and house sitting) but I also want to use this time to see a few closr friends, close up cuz I never have quality time out in the crowd....So maybe next week/end we can sneak in a visit sumtime??? *kiss*