Well... after Steve's birthday party, I think it's about time to say goodbye to that entire group. I just can't be around Tiffany at all anymore. There's just too much pain, and she seems to have decided to twist the knife by flirting with anyone/everyone right in front of me. At this point, I simply can't handle having her in my life in any capacity.
I'm taking a hiatus from that group of friends and myspace. I need to start over. Even if I end up sitting at home reading most of the time, that'd hurt much less than seeing her skank it up with anyone that'll let her. I have other friends, the problem being that all of them have their own shit going on, so they don't really have much time for me. I need a new best friend. Not that there's anything wrong with the old one, he's been pretty ok with the breakup and all, but he lives with her and more or less refuses to ever go out and do anything. So if I want to hang out with him, I have to go to their condo. Which I simply can't do again. Not any time soon.
Who knows? Maybe if I stay away for a couple months, I'll be able to get my head together, and maybe even (cross fingers) find somebody else. At this point, I've mostly decided that while we were happy sometimes, we have the ol' irreconcilable differences, and unless she does some serious growing up in short order (which is pretty damn unlikely) it's never going to work out. My best hope right now is that she'll get kicked out of the condo for not being able to make rent, so when I feel like I've healed enough, she won't be there, and I can hang out again. But then, maybe I never will. I mean, honestly, I think things are done with these friends. It could very well be over for good. There's just not enough of them in my corner, not enough of the time. I can't let myself suffer with uninterested friends. So for right now? Fuck 'em, I don't need 'em.
I'm taking a hiatus from that group of friends and myspace. I need to start over. Even if I end up sitting at home reading most of the time, that'd hurt much less than seeing her skank it up with anyone that'll let her. I have other friends, the problem being that all of them have their own shit going on, so they don't really have much time for me. I need a new best friend. Not that there's anything wrong with the old one, he's been pretty ok with the breakup and all, but he lives with her and more or less refuses to ever go out and do anything. So if I want to hang out with him, I have to go to their condo. Which I simply can't do again. Not any time soon.
Who knows? Maybe if I stay away for a couple months, I'll be able to get my head together, and maybe even (cross fingers) find somebody else. At this point, I've mostly decided that while we were happy sometimes, we have the ol' irreconcilable differences, and unless she does some serious growing up in short order (which is pretty damn unlikely) it's never going to work out. My best hope right now is that she'll get kicked out of the condo for not being able to make rent, so when I feel like I've healed enough, she won't be there, and I can hang out again. But then, maybe I never will. I mean, honestly, I think things are done with these friends. It could very well be over for good. There's just not enough of them in my corner, not enough of the time. I can't let myself suffer with uninterested friends. So for right now? Fuck 'em, I don't need 'em.