SOMETHING ABOUT WHO I WAS:
i have already met the love of my life, we were together on and off for just over four years. she found the love of her life who sadly was not me and so i was cut out of the picture. they are no longer together so she now feels the pain that i have for just over a year.
i used to be addicted. i smoked meth for about nine months solid, usually four days a week though the longest was for nine in a row once. at the end of it when i started crashing i got really sad and it took about two minutes after i started crying before the tears came.
the best job i have ever had was when i was installing stereo systems at circuit city. the people working there were awesome and i loved everything about my job. i wish i still worked there.
SOMETHING ABOUT WHO I AM:
i have put my past relationships behind me after about a year of intense mourning.
i have been off drugs since march of 2005. i know it is not long but it is a start.
i am in the army and feel that joining was the biggest mistake of my life.
i have been in iraq for almost a year and should be getting back to the states in a week and a half.
i like listening to punk/emo/screamo/hardcore/etc...
i myspace obsessively... i know it is a mortal sin but i just can't stop.
i like captain morgan spiced rum.
i want to be a pirate.
i want you to want me.
i need you to need me.
i'd love you to love me.
sorry i just kinda got caught up in the moment...
i have been known to randomly dance in public if the mood strikes me.
i sing... rather loud... almost constantly... i'm not good... people beg me to stop... i don't care... i like to sing
i am destined to be fat a bald... oh well
SOMETHING I WROTE:
I don't want to learn to play guitar, I just want to be able to.
I don't want to make money, I want to have it.
I don't want to look for the girl of my dreams, I want to know who she is.
I don't want to be creative, I want to create.
I don't want a million friends, I just want to be close to the ones I have.
I don't want to fall in love, I want to be in love.
I don't want to travel the world, I want to have traveled it.
I don't want to buy the house in my dreams, I want to build it.
I don't want to be happy, I just don't want to hurt.
I don't want to live an adventurous life, i want to have the memories of one.
I don't want to be religious, I just want to have something to believe in.
I don't want to learn, I just want to know.
I don't want to make a family, I want to have one.
I don't want you to miss me, I want to be there.
I don't want to be here, I want to be back home.
I don't want to wonder what's next, I want everything to be normal again.
I don't want to make new friends, I want my old friends back.
I don't want to get a new dog, I want my dog Macie back.
I don't want this food, I want a Sevi's burrito.
I don't want to be like you, I want to be different.
I don't want to be stagnant anymore, I want to have a life again.
I don't want everyone, I just want people to want me again.
I don't want to hate, I want a reason to believe in love.
I don't want to change, I want to know who I really am.
i have already met the love of my life, we were together on and off for just over four years. she found the love of her life who sadly was not me and so i was cut out of the picture. they are no longer together so she now feels the pain that i have for just over a year.
i used to be addicted. i smoked meth for about nine months solid, usually four days a week though the longest was for nine in a row once. at the end of it when i started crashing i got really sad and it took about two minutes after i started crying before the tears came.
the best job i have ever had was when i was installing stereo systems at circuit city. the people working there were awesome and i loved everything about my job. i wish i still worked there.
SOMETHING ABOUT WHO I AM:
i have put my past relationships behind me after about a year of intense mourning.
i have been off drugs since march of 2005. i know it is not long but it is a start.
i am in the army and feel that joining was the biggest mistake of my life.
i have been in iraq for almost a year and should be getting back to the states in a week and a half.
i like listening to punk/emo/screamo/hardcore/etc...
i myspace obsessively... i know it is a mortal sin but i just can't stop.
i like captain morgan spiced rum.
i want to be a pirate.
i want you to want me.
i need you to need me.
i'd love you to love me.
sorry i just kinda got caught up in the moment...
i have been known to randomly dance in public if the mood strikes me.
i sing... rather loud... almost constantly... i'm not good... people beg me to stop... i don't care... i like to sing
i am destined to be fat a bald... oh well
SOMETHING I WROTE:
I don't want to learn to play guitar, I just want to be able to.
I don't want to make money, I want to have it.
I don't want to look for the girl of my dreams, I want to know who she is.
I don't want to be creative, I want to create.
I don't want a million friends, I just want to be close to the ones I have.
I don't want to fall in love, I want to be in love.
I don't want to travel the world, I want to have traveled it.
I don't want to buy the house in my dreams, I want to build it.
I don't want to be happy, I just don't want to hurt.
I don't want to live an adventurous life, i want to have the memories of one.
I don't want to be religious, I just want to have something to believe in.
I don't want to learn, I just want to know.
I don't want to make a family, I want to have one.
I don't want you to miss me, I want to be there.
I don't want to be here, I want to be back home.
I don't want to wonder what's next, I want everything to be normal again.
I don't want to make new friends, I want my old friends back.
I don't want to get a new dog, I want my dog Macie back.
I don't want this food, I want a Sevi's burrito.
I don't want to be like you, I want to be different.
I don't want to be stagnant anymore, I want to have a life again.
I don't want everyone, I just want people to want me again.
I don't want to hate, I want a reason to believe in love.
I don't want to change, I want to know who I really am.
i guess i was just hoping that my inkling about her was right or that she could be swayed, was she to find out.
it's so rare for me to find something that i'm completely enamoured with that i guess i just wished things would miraculously work out for me this time..
ah well..