You wrote:
Its tough feeling this way. Waiting such a long time to start throwing my heart into something.
I felt so sad. I felt so angry. I felt disappointed, disappointed in myself, in not listening.
So for years now I've just lead this ME life style. Worrying about myself and only myself. But
I got the chance to see what being with someone else can accomplish. Even if it was behind closed doors
and shadows. I got that racing heart, the blushing cheeks, and the weak in the knees. It makes me anxious..
I want everything to happen NOW. Right now. I guess it would be hard to say I love you. But oohhhhh how I want
to. I want to give you everything you've never had. I want to be there for the rough times. For the awesome moments.
Guys are suppose to be the one to sweep girls off their feet. But you did that for me. Even if you suck at keeping
conversation or wont clean a bathroom. I find myself getting lost in every song I hear because something about
the melody or the lyrics remind me of... well... you. Its like the words are calling out to me. I know I talk
and act like I'm 5. But its part of my appeal I think. Its always nice to have someone around who can lighten
up a situation. Your my rock and I want to be your sky. Either way. This will stay private till I can stand
in front of you, look you in the eyes and say... I love you. Because right now. At this second. I already know I do. I used to be good at writing but I seem to be lacking as of late. I guess its just hard to put emotion on paper.
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Thank you. Thank you for making me want to take risks in my life, throw caution to the wind, and tell everyone to fuck off, because for once in my life I'm looking out for me...and am following my heart.
I _ You.
You just don't know it yet.
Its tough feeling this way. Waiting such a long time to start throwing my heart into something.
I felt so sad. I felt so angry. I felt disappointed, disappointed in myself, in not listening.
So for years now I've just lead this ME life style. Worrying about myself and only myself. But
I got the chance to see what being with someone else can accomplish. Even if it was behind closed doors
and shadows. I got that racing heart, the blushing cheeks, and the weak in the knees. It makes me anxious..
I want everything to happen NOW. Right now. I guess it would be hard to say I love you. But oohhhhh how I want
to. I want to give you everything you've never had. I want to be there for the rough times. For the awesome moments.
Guys are suppose to be the one to sweep girls off their feet. But you did that for me. Even if you suck at keeping
conversation or wont clean a bathroom. I find myself getting lost in every song I hear because something about
the melody or the lyrics remind me of... well... you. Its like the words are calling out to me. I know I talk
and act like I'm 5. But its part of my appeal I think. Its always nice to have someone around who can lighten
up a situation. Your my rock and I want to be your sky. Either way. This will stay private till I can stand
in front of you, look you in the eyes and say... I love you. Because right now. At this second. I already know I do. I used to be good at writing but I seem to be lacking as of late. I guess its just hard to put emotion on paper.
---
Thank you. Thank you for making me want to take risks in my life, throw caution to the wind, and tell everyone to fuck off, because for once in my life I'm looking out for me...and am following my heart.
I _ You.
You just don't know it yet.
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rapalus:
Deep. Glad to see you found someone who makes you happy, even if they don't know it.
min:
It's hard to keep that kind of emotion buried for very long. It's a damn good feeling to be that much in love.