Daily life is getting menial. I had a really good time this past few days when Kenton was here. We help each other forget that we have pretty much nothing going on in our lives. We went to alot of meetings and had a really good time. But I'm starting to really dislike the people I'm meeting in meetings and I'm tired of the bullshit. There are all these people that come to meetings because they have to due to parole who are shady and lame and for some reason, I thought I could trust anyone in NA rooms, but that's because I'm vulnerable. I went to this BBQ that my sponsor made me meet her at because she wanted to look over my writing. I was seriously the only white person there besides 3 other people and there were like over 100 members there. This one guy kept persisting with me about getting my number and he's in a rehab center for like the past 2 months and I don't have anything in common with him..ugh. Guys just want my rack...I hate men sometimes. Like men would totally grab an kiss my hand an shit, and Kenton would be standing right there, and that didn't even matter. I went to another meeting last night where all these people that I don't like and don't want to talk to were there and I was just so annoyed. The problem I have is wanting to help or be nice to people when I really don't give a shit about them. And I don't see anyone really reaching out to me like that and I'm not asking them too.
My mom sent me to an American Indian Shaman this week, which was incredible. I'm going to go every week for 4 weeks and see if I can get all this anger an stuff together. I felt so great when I left their house and Kenton was really supportive. Things are getting better with us because we talk more openly. I'm so glad I have him because I would never ever want to meet someone who's in the program. BLEGH.
I have my third and final interview at Blockbuster this Tuesday. They want me to take the pink out of my hair, which sucks, but oh well. So I'm going to be doing something for once and making money again, hopefully my attitude can pick up.
My mom sent me to an American Indian Shaman this week, which was incredible. I'm going to go every week for 4 weeks and see if I can get all this anger an stuff together. I felt so great when I left their house and Kenton was really supportive. Things are getting better with us because we talk more openly. I'm so glad I have him because I would never ever want to meet someone who's in the program. BLEGH.
I have my third and final interview at Blockbuster this Tuesday. They want me to take the pink out of my hair, which sucks, but oh well. So I'm going to be doing something for once and making money again, hopefully my attitude can pick up.
visara:
Sometimes we have to give up something funky in our looks for a good job ... I've done that in the past ...
sabro:
Thanx for your nice comment about my set. I'm so happy you loved it.