So this is my first blog post, second attempt. So what is on my mind this evening, is my interview/tryout for a job at D-land in baking/pastry. I have been stressing out since the first interview where I found out that I would be moved on to the second interview and tryout. I have to bake one kind of muffin 5 pieces with a presentation, then 2 different mini pastries, and one plated dessert with a sauce all in 4 hours which includes the interview and clean up. I have been practicing the last two days, and friends and family who have tried my samples have said they are good, but I am still nervous. All that is going through my head is the timing and prepping of the recipes, what I am going to be doing. And I am full of self doubt, that I am going to fail, and make a full of myself in front of professional chefs. It has even affected my sleep. I hate this and just wish it was already over.
Anyway on a new topic my love life or the lack there of. The last date I have been on was on my birthday in June 27th of this year. But there is this young lady at work that I have falle for hard. She is beautiful, fun, and funny, so easy to talk to and with. Whenever she is at work my day is better, and I can't keep my eyes off her and I can't help but smile. And I love talking with her, about movies, t.v., comics, games, and so many other common interest. The sad fact is that it is destined to never be at least not in this lifetime. Firstly she is in a relationship already with a great guy that is far better looking then me and a genuinely good dude, secondly there is an age gap ( I am 35 and she is 22). All it could ever be is nothing more than the medieval notion of courtly love.
So I guess I shall be ending this blog post for tonight. Perhaps I will write tomorrow about how the tryout went. Anyway good night.
Peace