Today is the day
Today is the day that i dread the most... the day when the BDC hits me, the day I can't leave the house as I can't let anyone see me. I hate it when I'm usually so rational about life. But to physically face another human makes me feel sorry for them. Sorry that they have to look at me. Tomorrow may be totally different i just wish i knew when it was going to happen or how to stop it! It's my job too know, it's my job to help people so, why i can't i beat this.
I'm so scared that i will pass it down too my daughter, so far she's been protected from it. I think being on here is doing more harm than good... not sure i can take another set when i don't believe in myself.
I'm sorry you're reading this x
Today is the day that i dread the most... the day when the BDC hits me, the day I can't leave the house as I can't let anyone see me. I hate it when I'm usually so rational about life. But to physically face another human makes me feel sorry for them. Sorry that they have to look at me. Tomorrow may be totally different i just wish i knew when it was going to happen or how to stop it! It's my job too know, it's my job to help people so, why i can't i beat this.
I'm so scared that i will pass it down too my daughter, so far she's been protected from it. I think being on here is doing more harm than good... not sure i can take another set when i don't believe in myself.
I'm sorry you're reading this x
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deep:
would you be my friend? I'd love to chat sometime...
littlejohn22:
I'm glad I read this... I wish I knew how you are doing now.... littlejohn22