Dear Ruby
i am a genuine slave servant male 30, who has a strong desire to serve and please my Mistress to Her perfection and desire. i am hard working and trained to obey commands with no questions asked. i generally do not talk much and i am a quiet guy who just likes to serve his superiors.
i can do all houseboy duties, such as cleaning, washing. ironing, vacuuming, caring for any pets, shopping, and everythig else i am orderd to do, however i am not a money slave. i can obey all orders no matter how humiliating or degrading they are, as You desire.
i do not ask for anything in return but the desire to serve in complete submission. i am very well presented and well-mannered at all times.
i am very serious about my submissive lifestyle, so please if you wish to carry this forward, i would be happy to chat on phone or internet to move forward. my yahoo id is ***** and msn id is *******. if you wish i can provide my phone number for your screening.
Kind Regards
****
That's another email I got from someone the other day.
How true what Perdy says about avoiding intimacyby being kinky. There's something very 'safe' about kinky sex. When I'm in kinky mode it's almost as though I can drift outside my body and watch myself...although it definitely is part of my sexual psyche, I do feel like I'm putting on a bit of an act or a mask or something. For me anyway, it is soooo much easier to flip into kinky slut mode instead of scraping away some layers and really truly connecting with someone.
This is the ultimate human paradox: we are all desperatly seeking connection and intimacy with others yet simultaneously fearful and avoiding it at all costs.
I'm like Perdy...I like topping form the bottom. My kink is to be rough handled. I LOVE being physically overpowered by someone, love being smacked and choked. But part of the thrill of it for me is the subtle power differences that aren't really visible to the eye at first. When I being choked with a cock violently fucking my throat it may look as though he has all the power, that I am being completely submissive, but what is going through my head is this: "you may think you are powerful but the only reason you are fucking my throat is because I am letting you, allowing you and Iam the one who is getting all the attention here so when it really come down to it, who has the power here?
Why do women like to be abused? Why do we like to be choked and spanked and whipped and talked down to? I have mused over this for many years.
I think part of it has to do with the fact that 99% of us have grown up amidst the insanity of the world's fucked up attitudes towards sexuality and therefore whether we like it or not, have some guilt somewhere when it comes to sex.
A lot of girls overcome this by fantasizing about having things done 'to them' because this abates their guilt somewhat, the psychology being 'if you are doing this to me, what can i do? it's not my responsibility.' This is why a lot of women, although few would admit to it, ahve a rapoe fantasy. This doesn't mean they actually want to be raped in reality. But in fantasy it is a huge turn on for them.
Often on the verge of an orgasm, this is what is running through my head, a complete rush of 'I can't help myself, i have no say in this, this isn't my responsibility'.
The reality is that we are all beautiful creatures who deserve to be loved unconditionally 100% and deserve every joy and bit of success we can get. But how many of us really truly believe that though? I think enjoying being abused also has to do with this. It feels good to be punished. As children we are used to the pattern of behaving badly and being punished. As adults we get away with things without suffering the consequences. So when I am being whipped and it really fucking hurts, I feel this overwhelming surge of satisfaction and catharsism as though I am paying for all my 'sins' (I abhore this word but you get the picture), all the trouble I have caused and got away with. I am also paying for all the great things in my life that deep down I feel like I don't deserve.
Come on let's play psychoanalysts! What's the psychology behind your kink?
i am a genuine slave servant male 30, who has a strong desire to serve and please my Mistress to Her perfection and desire. i am hard working and trained to obey commands with no questions asked. i generally do not talk much and i am a quiet guy who just likes to serve his superiors.
i can do all houseboy duties, such as cleaning, washing. ironing, vacuuming, caring for any pets, shopping, and everythig else i am orderd to do, however i am not a money slave. i can obey all orders no matter how humiliating or degrading they are, as You desire.
i do not ask for anything in return but the desire to serve in complete submission. i am very well presented and well-mannered at all times.
i am very serious about my submissive lifestyle, so please if you wish to carry this forward, i would be happy to chat on phone or internet to move forward. my yahoo id is ***** and msn id is *******. if you wish i can provide my phone number for your screening.
Kind Regards
****
That's another email I got from someone the other day.
How true what Perdy says about avoiding intimacyby being kinky. There's something very 'safe' about kinky sex. When I'm in kinky mode it's almost as though I can drift outside my body and watch myself...although it definitely is part of my sexual psyche, I do feel like I'm putting on a bit of an act or a mask or something. For me anyway, it is soooo much easier to flip into kinky slut mode instead of scraping away some layers and really truly connecting with someone.
This is the ultimate human paradox: we are all desperatly seeking connection and intimacy with others yet simultaneously fearful and avoiding it at all costs.
I'm like Perdy...I like topping form the bottom. My kink is to be rough handled. I LOVE being physically overpowered by someone, love being smacked and choked. But part of the thrill of it for me is the subtle power differences that aren't really visible to the eye at first. When I being choked with a cock violently fucking my throat it may look as though he has all the power, that I am being completely submissive, but what is going through my head is this: "you may think you are powerful but the only reason you are fucking my throat is because I am letting you, allowing you and Iam the one who is getting all the attention here so when it really come down to it, who has the power here?
Why do women like to be abused? Why do we like to be choked and spanked and whipped and talked down to? I have mused over this for many years.
I think part of it has to do with the fact that 99% of us have grown up amidst the insanity of the world's fucked up attitudes towards sexuality and therefore whether we like it or not, have some guilt somewhere when it comes to sex.
A lot of girls overcome this by fantasizing about having things done 'to them' because this abates their guilt somewhat, the psychology being 'if you are doing this to me, what can i do? it's not my responsibility.' This is why a lot of women, although few would admit to it, ahve a rapoe fantasy. This doesn't mean they actually want to be raped in reality. But in fantasy it is a huge turn on for them.
Often on the verge of an orgasm, this is what is running through my head, a complete rush of 'I can't help myself, i have no say in this, this isn't my responsibility'.
The reality is that we are all beautiful creatures who deserve to be loved unconditionally 100% and deserve every joy and bit of success we can get. But how many of us really truly believe that though? I think enjoying being abused also has to do with this. It feels good to be punished. As children we are used to the pattern of behaving badly and being punished. As adults we get away with things without suffering the consequences. So when I am being whipped and it really fucking hurts, I feel this overwhelming surge of satisfaction and catharsism as though I am paying for all my 'sins' (I abhore this word but you get the picture), all the trouble I have caused and got away with. I am also paying for all the great things in my life that deep down I feel like I don't deserve.
Come on let's play psychoanalysts! What's the psychology behind your kink?
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Lovely to see you last night, hope you enjoyed it & that it's not so long till next time. Wish could have talked longer . Haven't uploaded the pics yet but will post you when I do. For someone as keen on photography as I am, I can be astoundingly incompetent sometimes.
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