I'm going through a painful breakup, because he wants kids and I don't. He knew before we dated how adament I was about not having kids but he hoped over time he could change my mind. It is irreconcileable. I didn't get out of bed until 6pm and don't really care about anything right now. We have a 2 bedroom apartment and he'll take one room and I the other until we figure something else out, I'm sick of moving, this was supposed to be my home, our home. I don't understand any of this. I don't understand the desire for having kids, my brain does not work this way. I imagine I won't be on here much. I guess that doesn't matter either. Was really hoping Boy Bye would hit front page as it's well loved or even Slay is well loved too but they keep getting passed up a lot for some reason for lesser loved sets or sets of a lower quality or sets that just came out, so that makes me feel shitty too. So I guess I just suck and have nothing to look forward to. I will just lay in bed in the dark, listening to this song and going to work when I have to. I'm sick of being a failure, I try so hard...I'm sick of life.
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thrasherx:
I dont expect it to mean but so much coming from a random stranger on here. But I really do feel for you and get it when it comes to this conflict. In my heart and words I felt the same about kids for a very long time. Partially because of my own childhood, not wanting to make the same mistakes as were made with me. Partially knowing that I didnt want the weight of responsibility to sacrifice foe a child. Perhaps purely selfish, but also a bit of knowing my own limitations. I was pressured by my wife as well as other to have kids, till finally I gave into pressure and agreed to take the shields down and allow for chance. Well it never happened and since then we've permanently closed the door to it ever being possible. Sometimes actually it bothers me and I wonder what of, but most of the time I think this is a far better way. Some people just arent meant to have kids, and Ive always thought I was one of then. Anyway, just some random thoughts and sorry for the rambling interjection. @romany
wissportsfan:
Hugs beautiful