You know how they say most relationships end badly? ... yeah....
My amazing cousin Diana send me this today to cheer me up
but the truth is,
no matter how I spin it,
or try to justify to myself that the way I've gone about things with the one I still love was the best way...
I feel remorse,
immature,
childish,
typical male asshole,
moronic,
unbelievably inhumane,
blind to the good I had,
should I go on?
This part of my life is called: "Hurt"
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
*****
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way...
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...What... have... I... become?
...What... have... I... done?
I was wrong...
clear as crystal wrong!!!!!
and the thing is, she told me all along!!!!
Oh dear God she TOLD ME!!!!!!!!!
She tried to SHOW ME!!!!!!!!!
But I was too full of myself!!!!!!!
all in the name of foolishness,
I claimed to be and tried to be someone I am not,
I denied the truth,
she told me all along....
I hurt her...
.... but it matters not,
for she is now gone....... forever........
I must forever live with my consequence....
I have become THAT guy, the one I once vowed never to become...
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*sobbing*
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...I was wrong
Now I'll never see your face, anymore
Oh my love,
I'd give anything for one more day with you
Now I'll never see your face, anymore.......
I just want to be friends again, that's all I ask for......