I've got all if three followers on here, but writing isn't always to an audience. Sometimes it's to your own soul. I recently won a battle against depression. It lasted a couple years. There's still a lot left to do. I'm headed in the right direction, to be sure, but in the background my own mind looks over my shoulder and waits for me to screw up so it can punish me for it. Anxiety and high stress levels have become a normal part of life for be rather than feeling foreign as it used to.
This site and it's community has given me hope. I've read really cool stories about this community and I want to be a part of it. So far, I've been given at least a place to be open and honest. That is hard to come by for me, especially where I live.
Thank you to all of you who work do hard to make this an accepting community. It's the one place I feel safe. I'm allowed to just be me and it's a good feeling. The commitment I'm making to myself is to update this blog at least one a week and that it will always be an uncensored and honest picture of how I'm feeling. I can't wait to fulfill that commitment and bring some of you along for the ride. Thanks guys and gals.