Laying in bed, just finished watching the SG dvd and feeling exceptionally inspired. All the girls on the dvd were so different and so beautiful. MY WHOLE LIFE I've found being different and maybe a little weird super special and beautiful but have just been waiting to actually let myself totally embrace it and do all the things with my body (mainly meaning tattoos) that i've wanted, do to fear instilled by my mom and other "authority figures" that I respect. I mean the truth is i've always known that one day that would be it and I'd leap into life/lifestyle i've always felt drawn to and just totally have to just deal with the risk that certain people i care about wont see me the same way or even care for me the same anymore and even though its sure to hurt the truth is I cant worry about that forever, not if its making me hold myself back from things in my life i want. We each only have one life to live as our own and the LAST thing I want is to think I wasted mine just worrying about what other people (meaning friends and family not like strangers and shit cause I could honestly wipe my ass with all that noise) I'm not gonna lie and say the thought of getting my first tattoo doesnt terrify me cause theres no point. The truth is it makes me RIDICULOUSLY nervous and I really wish I could have a more cool collective overwhelming feeling of calm peace about it but thas just not me, wheather its something I wanna do really badly or something i hate with a passion I'm always gonna get intensly nervous and worried because thats just the way i've always ben about everything but I KNOW this is what I REALLY want and have wanted since ATLEAST10 years old when I'd stay up all night watch documentaries on the art of tattoos. FUUUCK I just saw the time, I gotta hurry my ass up and get dressed for work...
gbuick:
well said