I wrote my last requests tonight.
I mean, I wrote my will, and my funeral song list and all that.
It doesn't disturb me at all incase you're wondering.
infact, something tells me death will be the most comfort I've ever felt.
don't get me wrong, i don't look forward to it, but I'm not afraid of it. I don't look at it as a bad thing.
If only I could see the funeral to truly know if I approve, but then again, i kind of take comfort in knowing that it's something that I will never have seen.
fingers crossed.
I mean, I wrote my will, and my funeral song list and all that.
It doesn't disturb me at all incase you're wondering.
infact, something tells me death will be the most comfort I've ever felt.
don't get me wrong, i don't look forward to it, but I'm not afraid of it. I don't look at it as a bad thing.
If only I could see the funeral to truly know if I approve, but then again, i kind of take comfort in knowing that it's something that I will never have seen.
fingers crossed.
to clarify ; it's all true, but don't absorb it in the sense that death = comfort and I am all sad and some kid who writes about his feelings. FUCK THAT. I mean it from a completely atheistic sense of happiness and comfort in the present. eg. there's no fear of death or want/need to die, it's just a 'make each day better than the last' thing.
i couldn't give a shit if i died tomorrow, that kinda thing.
all these imbeciles that fear death, or fear it so little because they long for their reincarnation or their 'life after death' bullshit. that fucking saddens me. if you're one of them, you're taking up space and i wish to never be around you for fear of getting dumber just being in your presence.