Already posted once.... I decided to post it again....
I really dont understand sometimes why things happen to me the way they do. I am an honest person, and first and foremost myself. People see me as a bitch, which I dont deny that I am... but its not me 100%. Being a bitch isnt what makes up my life, its what balances it. I have had my share of ups and downs and in and outs... but its not a bad thing. Its life experiences, that I have learned from and grown from and thats what has made me, me.
I have been called names, even jumped by girls. Slapped when there was truly no need and have had love ripped out of my life. I have held an angel, which many cannot say, and then pointed the finger at for this precious angel going away. I have done my share of drugs and cleaned up my act. I have made important decisions that affected myself in a negative way, but bettered the life of my own creation. It disgust me that out of this some people will only see the negative things, and will never see the positive... and yet this I really dont understand...
Why is it that people see and point out the bad, yet they envy me so much? Why is it that when individuals are confronted, they shadow away and try to make the tables turn as if I am the bad one? Why is it that everything can go so smooth, and then get rocky then stormy and convert into my worlds destruction? Do you know why???
I have figured it out in my head, sort of... at least I think I have. I think its perhaps because at times I am a bit too outspoken. Or maybe its because my presence and the very thought of me is so alarming, that people attak me. I have turned many heads, made a room stop when I entered and even been heard in a crowd. And this is not to sound concited, nor above myself. I do apologize if I am a bit too confident, but its my right and a gift I have been granted to use to its full extent. I have always over analyzed every situation, never thinking of the outcome of course... and perhaps under analyzed the situations that needed the analyzing the most. I am NOT perfect nor will I ever be. There will always be some flaw, some imperfection. Yet these are the things that will make me beautiful and shine above the rest.
Not to put myself on a pedastool, but I am a true diamond in the rough. Elegeant, yet not afraid of grunge. Flawless, yet not afraid of change. Articulate, yet not afraid to say what is truly on my mind. Cold hearted, yet not afraid to love... and that is priceless...
I really dont understand sometimes why things happen to me the way they do. I am an honest person, and first and foremost myself. People see me as a bitch, which I dont deny that I am... but its not me 100%. Being a bitch isnt what makes up my life, its what balances it. I have had my share of ups and downs and in and outs... but its not a bad thing. Its life experiences, that I have learned from and grown from and thats what has made me, me.
I have been called names, even jumped by girls. Slapped when there was truly no need and have had love ripped out of my life. I have held an angel, which many cannot say, and then pointed the finger at for this precious angel going away. I have done my share of drugs and cleaned up my act. I have made important decisions that affected myself in a negative way, but bettered the life of my own creation. It disgust me that out of this some people will only see the negative things, and will never see the positive... and yet this I really dont understand...
Why is it that people see and point out the bad, yet they envy me so much? Why is it that when individuals are confronted, they shadow away and try to make the tables turn as if I am the bad one? Why is it that everything can go so smooth, and then get rocky then stormy and convert into my worlds destruction? Do you know why???
I have figured it out in my head, sort of... at least I think I have. I think its perhaps because at times I am a bit too outspoken. Or maybe its because my presence and the very thought of me is so alarming, that people attak me. I have turned many heads, made a room stop when I entered and even been heard in a crowd. And this is not to sound concited, nor above myself. I do apologize if I am a bit too confident, but its my right and a gift I have been granted to use to its full extent. I have always over analyzed every situation, never thinking of the outcome of course... and perhaps under analyzed the situations that needed the analyzing the most. I am NOT perfect nor will I ever be. There will always be some flaw, some imperfection. Yet these are the things that will make me beautiful and shine above the rest.
Not to put myself on a pedastool, but I am a true diamond in the rough. Elegeant, yet not afraid of grunge. Flawless, yet not afraid of change. Articulate, yet not afraid to say what is truly on my mind. Cold hearted, yet not afraid to love... and that is priceless...
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daviejones:
b/c people are ass holes and if they see someone that has more than them or something they want, they are going to piss on you.. but fuck them, you put up a great set, and apparently you have what they want.
pascipio:
I enjoyed your set. You are lovely!