I guess I'm finally ready to admit it, in the effort to fool others into thinking I'm happy, I only succeed in fooling myself. I guess in the end, depression is something you can only control for so long, then it begins to control you. I guess I am finally ready to get help. I searched for so long to find the solution within myself, because I always felt I could only rely on myself, to find that one little switch, but it isn't working anymore. I've held it in for too long, and the floodgates have opened. It will be a while before I'm better.
good luck....
It's not something that's easy to live with, but it's possible and completely worth it in the end.