mr_sunshine

Went out for the little brother's birthday saturday night. drank. (rare occurence, that). most importantly, got to see doug stanhope live for the first time. if you're unfamiliar with his work, i highly recommend it. "standup comedy" is only the best way to categorize what he does. political commentary, base philosophy, all combined with the foulest anecdotes i've ever heard. he reminds me of bill...
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another day, another year closer to the end.......

why do birthdays have to suck the older you get? when i was young, they were a golden moment in time, a day when i was special and there would be new shit to play with. this year, i had to almost argue with my damn family just to have something to do and people to spend...
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"Staring at the carnage, praying that the sun would never rise
Living another day in disguise, these feelings can't be right
Lend me your courage to stand up and fight

The fighting rages on and on
To challlenge me you must be strong
I walk your land but don't belong
Two million soldiers can't be wrong

Not the way I pictured this, I wanted better...
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i am completely and utterly in love. i met a girl online three weeks ago, and have fallen into a whirlwind romance. we have so much in common, it's utterly scary. hell, she even reads my mind half the time, and i hers.

not that anyone seems to read my journal, mind you....

i figured at least one person would comment on the pictures i...
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I was bored.....

work was slow last night, i was cuttung up boxes and one thing led to another.........

the next thing i knew, there was porn all over my bed!!!!

not my fault, i swear


EDIT: and all of a sudden i notice, my favorite suicidegirl, seda is no longer active on the site! anyone know what happened to her?

I should really know better than to go to a wrestling show. i've been out of the business for about 4 years now, but every time i go there, i just wanna jump back in, warts and all. god help me, i miss it so.....

now all i can think of is when i'm gonna find time in my schedule to work out and get...
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felt a journal update was in order. not that i had much new to say, but it seemed to be time. the last one was up for SO long.

i've got two weeks of holidays this year, and no idea where to go or what to do. my 10-year highschool reunion is this summer, but do i really want to go see a bunch of...
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"mamas don't let your babies grow up to be cowboys.
'cause they'll never stay home and they're always alone, even with someone they love.

a cowboy loves smokey old pool rooms and clear mountain mornings,
little warm puppies and children and girls of the night.
them that don't know him won't like him and them that do sometimes won't know how to take him.
he's...
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my grandpa is sick. really sick. probably gonna die.

a shame, really. here is a man who at the age of 40 decided to drop his boring bank job and boring marriage and go live in the woods and smoke pot and just not give a fuck what anyone thought of him. my role model as a child, a man who was so left-wing he...
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a reminder of a time when i felt so powerful. a few months ago, before i got a huge kick in the ass. still, i try to recall what i felt at that moment, power, happiness and absolute freedom. i strive to achieve this state again:





I am a fucking god and therefore unstoppable.
I am a man at the absolute apex of evolution, the...
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here we are again. the season where we celebrate the birth of christ. and the burning of the oil. and the death of the green man as he gestates in mother nature's womb, awaiting rebirth. and whatever the fuck kwanzaa's supposed to be for. and we watch as people go through the most stress and depression of the whole year. and for what? to worry...
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