So just wanted to post a quick blog because I cant sleep and I feel like ranting! haha! Whoops!
Well I am off until Monday because my 24th Birthday is this Friday! Eessssshhhh!! I know I'm not old but I feel like it right now. I've had so much going on this year I dont know exactly how to cope and I feel like I wasted the past few years of my life. How do you start completely over. Everything I've known for the past four years is gone. Still working on getting my divorced finalized. The ex already has a girlfriend but yet refuses to sign the divorce papers or answer his phone so I can try to get them taken care of. I just want this nightmare to be over with so I can start my life over again. And I know that sounds silly, I know I cant go back and start over. But I need to be happy again and find my way again and I cant with this looming over me. It is awful. I honestly wish him nothing but the best though and I know that sounds cliche' and maybe me saying it sounds cliche' sounds cliche'.....maybe I'm being cliche' but whatever I am what I am. I really hope some of you got that reference. haha! I do mean that though! I'm still working on paying off my hospital bills too which sucks ass so when my lease is up in December I am having to move back in the some family so I can work on paying off my debt and saving my money again. Hopefully I'll be able to go back to school soon too! If only I knew what I wanted to go for. Life goes by so quickly and I havent had a chance to figure mine out yet. Maybe you're not supposed to figure it out completely though. That stresses me out! haha! Most of this has been complaining and I am sorry about that. If any of you ever need someone to vent to please feel free to message me. I will listen as much as possible. If you could all do me a favor and send me some positive vibes and good juju it would be much appreciated. Especially for my Aunt also. I found out she has terminal cancer. My heart is breaking at all of the bad news I have been getting lately. I am trying to save money now for a plane ticket out to see her in California. My family is the most important thing to me and I dont want to miss any memories.
Lets try to lighten some of this tension real quick with a funny story. Its a short story but I find it funny. So I was hanging out with my sister and we were talking about cutting my hair and we redid my undercut and then I asked her hypothetically how she thought I would look if I cut the green out of my hair and she said "I dont know lets see!" and then proceeded to cut a chunk out of my hair so now I have this awful bowl cut looking thing! :p hahaha! I could have killed her but I love her too much!
This was during the cut!! I've never had it this short before and I have nothing to hide behind now! It feels weird and I dont know how I like it yet. But I have been taking a lot of biotin so hopefully that'll help it grow back quicker! I hope :|
Anyways I hope you all are having a lovely week and a lovely night. I need to stop ranting! :p Sweetest of dreams!
xoxo Moony