I came across this old story of mine i had written my freshman year of high school. its rather old and a bit entertaining given the fact it reminds me much of hedwig and the angry inch movie (which i had never seen until just this recently, thank you lovely lady who watched it with me). but i thought i would share this with everyone and hope you all enjoy.
"This is a story of a time before man. A time when the earth was very young. There lived on this planet beings known as the old ones. Throughout history, tales have been told of the magnificent yet strange creatures. There are many descriptions of what these being looked like, many variations. They walked on all fours, had two heads and rugged gray skin like lizards. They have been described as conjoined twins. For quite sometime, these beings lived peacefully with nature and the planet. One day, jealous of their happiness and contentment, the elder gods punished the beings. The sky darkened and then sudden bursts of lightning shot forth from the heavens. The old ones were hit, splitting them in half.
The beings let out a scream that made the heavens cry. The earth was covered in blood. Many beings did not survive this atrocity. The rest had fallen into a deep sleep of pain. The gods seemed happy with their work and the attacks ceased. Endless fields of bodies, some dead some asleep. Some just exhausted from screaming that they could barely move. The earth was now quiet. The sky remained dark for many years to come. Time had passed and wounds had healed. The clouds separated and sky shined as brightly as ever. The beings woke from their hibernation. Groggy bodies tried to move but could not. They moved little by little, allowing their muscles to stretch. One being finally was able to rise to its feet. Many rose following the cue of the first. This was the first group of humans. These beings stood and stretched to their hearts content. Suddenly cheers could be heard throughout the land. The gods had failed. By separating them, they made the beings even happier.
Centuries had passed and mankind lived in harmony. One evening, one of the creatures woke from a horrible nightmare. Crying frantically, his hands were searching his side as if trying to grab onto something that wasn't there. Others heard his cry and came to see. The pain could be seen in his eyes. Others felt his pain and realized what he was doing and began looking and feeling their own scars. Suddenly the earth was filled once more with cries of agony. The cries were similar to the cries when they were first separated. Within their happiness, they had all forgotten about their other half, the part of them that made them whole. Although it appears that they are now two entirely separate forms, they still shared a common bond, their souls. Thus began mankind's search for their soul mates. Millennium after millennium, we still search. Of the vast majority living here on earth, only a few people have found their soul mate. You have to admit, this is a pretty huge world we live in with millions of inhabitants and possible soul mates.
It is hard to explain what happens when you finally find your soul mate. But when you do realize you have found you soul mate, it is usually in two ways. One is the old saying "love at first sight". Once that person enters your life, you know immediately that he/her is the one. The other way is much more subtle. You may be in a relationship and after a great deal of time you realize that they are your soul mate. It may come to you in your sleep, or while you are sitting there together watching a movie. Where you look into their eyes and immediately get that smirk or smile on your face for no reason. Some souls wont realize it that easily. They have been searching for so long that they no longer recognize their other half. But when they are together for a certain periods of time, you get that clicking sound, that instant feeling of absolute joy. Then it's like falling in love all over again. This can happen at any time; very unpredictable love is.
But our soul mate does exist. They are out there somewhere. They may be halfway across the world or even next door to you, they key is to not stop looking. Once you find them, you will realize it was worth the search. Those times will be nothing more than a distant memory and a new one will emerge. Mans life long goal is to find their soul mates. You have to understand, the soul is eternal, it is forever. It has been around since the beginning of time and will not give up so easily, so neither should you.
Our bodies are mere vessels for the soul. In each life and body, throughout history, they search. In it they find love, lost, pain, sorrow, joy. The soul learns from each life it has entered and continues on to the next. It attains all the knowledge through history and moves on. But when two souls are united once more, they will never be separated again. In this life or the next, they will find their way back to each other. Once every soul has found their mate, the world will finally feel and live in perfect harmony that once was our planet earth, millions of years ago when these magnificent beings first walked. "
well its been quite some time since i last read this and even thought about it. now that i have read it, a part of me believes that i have found mine. she is here, reading this right now. her eyes slowly taking in each word as it travels down the page, her crooked smile appearing ever so slightly but enough for me to feel it when im not even there next to her. you know who you are, you know what you do to me, you know what i feel for you. but sadly, times have been rough and its been quite painful, realizing things never seen before. but throughout it all, my feelings for you do not change, they remain as strong as the first time i realized i felt them. and i am truly sorry for all the hurt i have caused and every tear shed and nights without me laying next to you.
i know we dont really believe in fate, nor soul mates and destiny. we create our own lives and are in control of everything or most things. granted i dont believe in a soulmate, but with all of my heart i believe you are my missing half, the half that competes and compliments me. the feeling of utter bliss when i am around you i cant describe, and only hope you feel the same way. i know as each moment passes that i am with you, it becomes more and more clear that you are what i believe. our mind, body and soul become one, we speak the same tongues at the same time. we think thoughts and on so many occasions blurt out the same spongebob quote. you understand me like no other and no one can compare to you. believe me when i say that. you are the definition of what i have always wanted in my life. you are that star, that hope, that joy i have reached and longed for my entire life. and now that i have you in my life, i wish not to lose you. but a part of me feels that star becoming just a bit out of reach. but you have shown and taught me many things, about myself, about this world, and about you. and i will not give up, i have faith in me, in you, in us that if i keep on reaching, you will always be by my side, a part of my life. but as what? a best friend? a girlfriend? a lover? a companion? a wife? a memory? Or none of the above?
Maybe this is nothing more than a story and i am just the king of wishful thinking. Trying to hold onto a childhood idea, a dream that there something heavenly out there that will make me whole. Maybe she is reading this and there is no emotion on her face. maybe the idea that i would even suggest to tell her what her facial expressions are wrong and she sits there with a blank emotionless face.
If i listen to my heart this is what it tells me, that i have met a woman that carries all the things i hoped and dreamed of in what my better half would be. and i mean it when i say "my better half". I can truly say i am the few handful of individuals since the beginning of time who can say that with his whole heart that he found his counterpart. i now leave myself with my final thought, with all that has been said and done, can i truly believe in myself if i ask, "can i really go on with my life with or without her presence beside me? maybe...maybe not?" i have found what all people seek and that should make me a better person as a whole. i should be able to wake up every morning feeling complete and feeling happiness because i have that in my life. even if i were no longer a part of that life i should be able to say i found it, i have it and i am complete and still go on. but then again how can one go one if one has spent countless lives searching and to finally find it only to lose it? what do you do or where do you go from that? is it that easy to just walk away? is it that easy to just forget? to not believe or accept? i once again find myself with more questions that anwers so i will conclude this now. Despite it all, I am still a believer.....
I louv you! This is Miquelobe Lyte, signing out.
"This is a story of a time before man. A time when the earth was very young. There lived on this planet beings known as the old ones. Throughout history, tales have been told of the magnificent yet strange creatures. There are many descriptions of what these being looked like, many variations. They walked on all fours, had two heads and rugged gray skin like lizards. They have been described as conjoined twins. For quite sometime, these beings lived peacefully with nature and the planet. One day, jealous of their happiness and contentment, the elder gods punished the beings. The sky darkened and then sudden bursts of lightning shot forth from the heavens. The old ones were hit, splitting them in half.
The beings let out a scream that made the heavens cry. The earth was covered in blood. Many beings did not survive this atrocity. The rest had fallen into a deep sleep of pain. The gods seemed happy with their work and the attacks ceased. Endless fields of bodies, some dead some asleep. Some just exhausted from screaming that they could barely move. The earth was now quiet. The sky remained dark for many years to come. Time had passed and wounds had healed. The clouds separated and sky shined as brightly as ever. The beings woke from their hibernation. Groggy bodies tried to move but could not. They moved little by little, allowing their muscles to stretch. One being finally was able to rise to its feet. Many rose following the cue of the first. This was the first group of humans. These beings stood and stretched to their hearts content. Suddenly cheers could be heard throughout the land. The gods had failed. By separating them, they made the beings even happier.
Centuries had passed and mankind lived in harmony. One evening, one of the creatures woke from a horrible nightmare. Crying frantically, his hands were searching his side as if trying to grab onto something that wasn't there. Others heard his cry and came to see. The pain could be seen in his eyes. Others felt his pain and realized what he was doing and began looking and feeling their own scars. Suddenly the earth was filled once more with cries of agony. The cries were similar to the cries when they were first separated. Within their happiness, they had all forgotten about their other half, the part of them that made them whole. Although it appears that they are now two entirely separate forms, they still shared a common bond, their souls. Thus began mankind's search for their soul mates. Millennium after millennium, we still search. Of the vast majority living here on earth, only a few people have found their soul mate. You have to admit, this is a pretty huge world we live in with millions of inhabitants and possible soul mates.
It is hard to explain what happens when you finally find your soul mate. But when you do realize you have found you soul mate, it is usually in two ways. One is the old saying "love at first sight". Once that person enters your life, you know immediately that he/her is the one. The other way is much more subtle. You may be in a relationship and after a great deal of time you realize that they are your soul mate. It may come to you in your sleep, or while you are sitting there together watching a movie. Where you look into their eyes and immediately get that smirk or smile on your face for no reason. Some souls wont realize it that easily. They have been searching for so long that they no longer recognize their other half. But when they are together for a certain periods of time, you get that clicking sound, that instant feeling of absolute joy. Then it's like falling in love all over again. This can happen at any time; very unpredictable love is.
But our soul mate does exist. They are out there somewhere. They may be halfway across the world or even next door to you, they key is to not stop looking. Once you find them, you will realize it was worth the search. Those times will be nothing more than a distant memory and a new one will emerge. Mans life long goal is to find their soul mates. You have to understand, the soul is eternal, it is forever. It has been around since the beginning of time and will not give up so easily, so neither should you.
Our bodies are mere vessels for the soul. In each life and body, throughout history, they search. In it they find love, lost, pain, sorrow, joy. The soul learns from each life it has entered and continues on to the next. It attains all the knowledge through history and moves on. But when two souls are united once more, they will never be separated again. In this life or the next, they will find their way back to each other. Once every soul has found their mate, the world will finally feel and live in perfect harmony that once was our planet earth, millions of years ago when these magnificent beings first walked. "
well its been quite some time since i last read this and even thought about it. now that i have read it, a part of me believes that i have found mine. she is here, reading this right now. her eyes slowly taking in each word as it travels down the page, her crooked smile appearing ever so slightly but enough for me to feel it when im not even there next to her. you know who you are, you know what you do to me, you know what i feel for you. but sadly, times have been rough and its been quite painful, realizing things never seen before. but throughout it all, my feelings for you do not change, they remain as strong as the first time i realized i felt them. and i am truly sorry for all the hurt i have caused and every tear shed and nights without me laying next to you.
i know we dont really believe in fate, nor soul mates and destiny. we create our own lives and are in control of everything or most things. granted i dont believe in a soulmate, but with all of my heart i believe you are my missing half, the half that competes and compliments me. the feeling of utter bliss when i am around you i cant describe, and only hope you feel the same way. i know as each moment passes that i am with you, it becomes more and more clear that you are what i believe. our mind, body and soul become one, we speak the same tongues at the same time. we think thoughts and on so many occasions blurt out the same spongebob quote. you understand me like no other and no one can compare to you. believe me when i say that. you are the definition of what i have always wanted in my life. you are that star, that hope, that joy i have reached and longed for my entire life. and now that i have you in my life, i wish not to lose you. but a part of me feels that star becoming just a bit out of reach. but you have shown and taught me many things, about myself, about this world, and about you. and i will not give up, i have faith in me, in you, in us that if i keep on reaching, you will always be by my side, a part of my life. but as what? a best friend? a girlfriend? a lover? a companion? a wife? a memory? Or none of the above?
Maybe this is nothing more than a story and i am just the king of wishful thinking. Trying to hold onto a childhood idea, a dream that there something heavenly out there that will make me whole. Maybe she is reading this and there is no emotion on her face. maybe the idea that i would even suggest to tell her what her facial expressions are wrong and she sits there with a blank emotionless face.
If i listen to my heart this is what it tells me, that i have met a woman that carries all the things i hoped and dreamed of in what my better half would be. and i mean it when i say "my better half". I can truly say i am the few handful of individuals since the beginning of time who can say that with his whole heart that he found his counterpart. i now leave myself with my final thought, with all that has been said and done, can i truly believe in myself if i ask, "can i really go on with my life with or without her presence beside me? maybe...maybe not?" i have found what all people seek and that should make me a better person as a whole. i should be able to wake up every morning feeling complete and feeling happiness because i have that in my life. even if i were no longer a part of that life i should be able to say i found it, i have it and i am complete and still go on. but then again how can one go one if one has spent countless lives searching and to finally find it only to lose it? what do you do or where do you go from that? is it that easy to just walk away? is it that easy to just forget? to not believe or accept? i once again find myself with more questions that anwers so i will conclude this now. Despite it all, I am still a believer.....
I louv you! This is Miquelobe Lyte, signing out.
im glad. im glad you found that in your life. thats a beautiful thing. and your absolutely right. if it came and went youd be a lucky man to ever have known it. and yes, you could go on, im sure of it. because you are amazing and have beautiful dreams about what your life will become. i know that you are one of the greatest friends i have ever had and i want you to be happy as you can be. but dont gage your happiness on whats around you. gage your happiness on whats inside you. be. dont wait for someone to make you. you know who you are, you have an amazing sense of self. you are so many people rolled into one and every single one of them i have ever seen is fabulous. but as for now, well, you dont have to worry bout going on without her. she loves as much as you love her im sure. dont let confusion ruin your days. dont overthink. if something is unclear, you should ask a question. trust me...its all going as planned. no there isnt a fate, no there arent soulmates. but if you find something that makes you feel complete youve definantly found the closest thing to it.
Muah!
I hope you are well!