When the highlights of ones day happen to be things such as a 200 Won Fanta and getting 1 xp for saying 'Bladder of Holding' you know that some things are... well, different than one may want them to be. Or off-person back-flip-lateral-spin-to-tumble-an-arc-backstabs.
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There are days which I get rather lonely. And yet still have stayed my hand in regard to peeking into the light. Well, a very particular light. Socializing doesn't dent this lonesome feeling. But I think I am more disturbed by the fact that I just keep thinking to myself "No, that's not what I'm supposed to do. Not what I'm wanted to do." And then, as if to be implied that I'm going mad, I have to ask myself whether or not I really think that.
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An escape, though, I do find. From all the turmoils of mental clockwork. There is something just... upsetting about having to be here sometimes. It might just be the smell. But...
The ever-expanding playlists:
+Bullets and Butterflies
Kill Hannah - ... The Size of Bullets
Scarling - Band Aid Cover The Bullet Hole
InMe - White Butterfly
Rage Against the Machine - Bullet In The Head
Crazy Town - Butterfly
Citizen Cope - Bullet And A Target
Weezer - Butterfly
Creed - Bullets
Kidneythieves - Black Bullet
Smashing Pumpkins - Bullet With Butterlfy Wings
Pretty Girls Make Graves - Bullet Charm
HIM - Wings Of A Butterfly
Covenant - Bullet
+Cinnamon, Spiders, and Fire
Dressy Bessy - I Saw Cinnamon
Breaking Benjamin - Firefly
Moby - Spiders
Apocalyptica - Fight Fire With Fire
Jerry Cantrell - Spiderbite
The Prodigy - Firestarter
Disturbed - Inside The Fire
Say Anything - Spidersong
Tiger Army - Sea Of Fire
Jack Off Jill - Cinnamon Spider
Dragonforce - Through The Fire And The Flames
+LoevHaet
The Birthday Massacre - Red Stars [Lukewarm Lover Mix]
Kill Hannah - Love Sick
A Perfect Circle - The Nurse Who Loved Me
Plain White T's - Hate (I Really Don't Like You)
Nine Inch Nails - All The Love In The World
Three Days Grace - I Hate Everything About You
A Static Lullaby - Love To Hate, Hate To Me
Stabbing Westward - Bizzare Love Triangle
Snake River Conspiracy - Somebody Hates You
Stabbing Westward - Thing I Hate
Lady Sovereign - Love Me Or Hate Me
Idina Menzel - Better To Have Loved
Rilo Kiley - Does He Love You?
She Wants Revenge - I Don't Want To Fall In Love
Vast - Don't Take Your Love Away
Blaqk Audio - The Love Letter
Apocalyptica - S.O.S. (Anything But Love)
Kill Hannah - Love You To Death
The Goo Goo Dolls - Hate This Place
Frou Frou - It's Good To Be In Love
Jack Off Jill - Love Song
Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Maps
+Metalism
[It is metal. Duh. And kind of metal.]
+Oral Fixation
Pretty Girls Make Graves - The Teeth Collector
Assemblage 23 - Skyquake
Rilo Kiley - Portions For Foxes
Bush - Mouth
Kill Hannah - Lips Like Morphine
Moby - Tongues
The Knife - Silent Shout
Antsy Pants - Vampire
Aqualung - Tongue-Tied
Lily Allen - Smile
Vendetta Red - Vendetta Red Cried Rape On Their Date With Destiny
Sixpence None The Richer - Kiss Me
Nine Inch Nails - With Teeth
Bush - Mouth [The Stingray Mix]
+TakeCover
[Covers, but I'll list them, I guess.]
Apocalyptica - Hall Of The Mountain King
- Until It Sleeps
- Fight Fire With Fire
- For Whom The Bell Tolls
- Inquisition Symphony
- One
- Fade To Black
- Refuse/Resist
- Nothing Else Matters
- Domination
The Birthday Massacre - I Think We're Alone Now
Blue Man Group - Bab O'Riley
Gary Jules - Mad World
Great Big Sea - It's The End Of The World As We Know It
HIM - Wicked Game
Jack Off Jill - Love Song
- I Touch Myself
Kidneythieves - Crazy
Kill Hannah - Under The Milky Way
Limp Bizkit - Behind Blue Eyes
/w Everlast - Faith [Fame Remix]
Nirvana - Man Who Sold The World
Orgy - Blue Monday
Snake River Conspiracy - How Soon Is Now?
Ellen Page/Michael Cera - Anyone Else But You
Spoken - Time After Time
t.A.T.u - How Soon Is Now?
They Might Be Giants - Istanbul (Not Constantinople)
It Dies Today - Enjoy The Silence
Armsbendback - Don't Stand So Close To Me
A Perfect Circle - Love Song
Tori Amos - Smells Like Teen Spirit
R&J - When Doves Cry
Marilyn Manson - Sweet Dreams
- This Is Halloween
:wumpscut: - All Cried Out
My abilities to type fail, albeit I catch the needed corrections. It is simply... I think I might be depressed. I mean, I'm too distracted to type.
And lastly, as this has grown to a wall of thoughtext.
Actually, I don't know. Maybe later.
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[ded again]
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There are days which I get rather lonely. And yet still have stayed my hand in regard to peeking into the light. Well, a very particular light. Socializing doesn't dent this lonesome feeling. But I think I am more disturbed by the fact that I just keep thinking to myself "No, that's not what I'm supposed to do. Not what I'm wanted to do." And then, as if to be implied that I'm going mad, I have to ask myself whether or not I really think that.
_____
An escape, though, I do find. From all the turmoils of mental clockwork. There is something just... upsetting about having to be here sometimes. It might just be the smell. But...
The ever-expanding playlists:
+Bullets and Butterflies
Kill Hannah - ... The Size of Bullets
Scarling - Band Aid Cover The Bullet Hole
InMe - White Butterfly
Rage Against the Machine - Bullet In The Head
Crazy Town - Butterfly
Citizen Cope - Bullet And A Target
Weezer - Butterfly
Creed - Bullets
Kidneythieves - Black Bullet
Smashing Pumpkins - Bullet With Butterlfy Wings
Pretty Girls Make Graves - Bullet Charm
HIM - Wings Of A Butterfly
Covenant - Bullet
+Cinnamon, Spiders, and Fire
Dressy Bessy - I Saw Cinnamon
Breaking Benjamin - Firefly
Moby - Spiders
Apocalyptica - Fight Fire With Fire
Jerry Cantrell - Spiderbite
The Prodigy - Firestarter
Disturbed - Inside The Fire
Say Anything - Spidersong
Tiger Army - Sea Of Fire
Jack Off Jill - Cinnamon Spider
Dragonforce - Through The Fire And The Flames
+LoevHaet
The Birthday Massacre - Red Stars [Lukewarm Lover Mix]
Kill Hannah - Love Sick
A Perfect Circle - The Nurse Who Loved Me
Plain White T's - Hate (I Really Don't Like You)
Nine Inch Nails - All The Love In The World
Three Days Grace - I Hate Everything About You
A Static Lullaby - Love To Hate, Hate To Me
Stabbing Westward - Bizzare Love Triangle
Snake River Conspiracy - Somebody Hates You
Stabbing Westward - Thing I Hate
Lady Sovereign - Love Me Or Hate Me
Idina Menzel - Better To Have Loved
Rilo Kiley - Does He Love You?
She Wants Revenge - I Don't Want To Fall In Love
Vast - Don't Take Your Love Away
Blaqk Audio - The Love Letter
Apocalyptica - S.O.S. (Anything But Love)
Kill Hannah - Love You To Death
The Goo Goo Dolls - Hate This Place
Frou Frou - It's Good To Be In Love
Jack Off Jill - Love Song
Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Maps
+Metalism
[It is metal. Duh. And kind of metal.]
+Oral Fixation
Pretty Girls Make Graves - The Teeth Collector
Assemblage 23 - Skyquake
Rilo Kiley - Portions For Foxes
Bush - Mouth
Kill Hannah - Lips Like Morphine
Moby - Tongues
The Knife - Silent Shout
Antsy Pants - Vampire
Aqualung - Tongue-Tied
Lily Allen - Smile
Vendetta Red - Vendetta Red Cried Rape On Their Date With Destiny
Sixpence None The Richer - Kiss Me
Nine Inch Nails - With Teeth
Bush - Mouth [The Stingray Mix]
+TakeCover
[Covers, but I'll list them, I guess.]
Apocalyptica - Hall Of The Mountain King
- Until It Sleeps
- Fight Fire With Fire
- For Whom The Bell Tolls
- Inquisition Symphony
- One
- Fade To Black
- Refuse/Resist
- Nothing Else Matters
- Domination
The Birthday Massacre - I Think We're Alone Now
Blue Man Group - Bab O'Riley
Gary Jules - Mad World
Great Big Sea - It's The End Of The World As We Know It
HIM - Wicked Game
Jack Off Jill - Love Song
- I Touch Myself
Kidneythieves - Crazy
Kill Hannah - Under The Milky Way
Limp Bizkit - Behind Blue Eyes
/w Everlast - Faith [Fame Remix]
Nirvana - Man Who Sold The World
Orgy - Blue Monday
Snake River Conspiracy - How Soon Is Now?
Ellen Page/Michael Cera - Anyone Else But You
Spoken - Time After Time
t.A.T.u - How Soon Is Now?
They Might Be Giants - Istanbul (Not Constantinople)
It Dies Today - Enjoy The Silence
Armsbendback - Don't Stand So Close To Me
A Perfect Circle - Love Song
Tori Amos - Smells Like Teen Spirit
R&J - When Doves Cry
Marilyn Manson - Sweet Dreams
- This Is Halloween
:wumpscut: - All Cried Out
My abilities to type fail, albeit I catch the needed corrections. It is simply... I think I might be depressed. I mean, I'm too distracted to type.
And lastly, as this has grown to a wall of thoughtext.
Actually, I don't know. Maybe later.
_____
[ded again]
It helps numb my mind.
And gives me something good to talk about with my friendgroup.