Wow Steph has put it out there!! I would have too agree. You are the only one that can change your life....You have to take the risks and do something for yourself with utter abandon. Get yourself to that better place PLEASE. The first steps are always the hardest and as I have said before like Steph I have been in a similar place its not bullshit I understand how hard it is too see the point and the light at the end but you never will unless you try, and try hard. All the best to you please keep us posted.
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