I see a pattern in my relationships, so I know that part of the problem is definitely me. But coming from life with a mentally abusive to a pretty brutal degree, i find that I go with what I know and subconsciously seem to seek people that fit the part well. I am getting so frustrated with the way I allow myself to be treated, I can see that I am desired but that I allow men to see my insecurity as weakness and they use me by putting me down to bring themselves up. They try to take advantage of me and think that I don't know. Well I know more and more every day, and setting boundaries has been tough. People get so use to treating you a certain way because we are most definitely creatures of habit, and they don't seem to react well to my way of attempting to set these boundaries. I'll admit I can see that my fear and doubt is what is getting in the way. I'm not sure when the line comes when I should ease up and be understanding of the fact that we're all humans. When is it too much?And when can I say that it's not enough. I know that's up to me, but at this point I've been so bitter and I've cut every one out of my life it seems. I was surrounding myself with toxic people sure, but I'm far from perfect.