Haha I got asked to post this & I thought "Why not?"... its a bunch of bull and not all that interesting but anyone who wants a good laugh at a pathetic cat fight is welcome to read my drama. Background on this bitch.... shes stalking my manfriend via myspace.... posts pathetic blogs trying to win him back, fills out quizzes and posts bulletins full of stories of him, saying how much she misses him and all this... but shes also a filthy lying whore that likes to manipulate people and basically makes it her mission to sabotage lives. So no ones falling for it. She's not nearly as vulnerable or hurting as she makes herself out to be and I'm really sick of her trying to get involved in our lives... So here it is, what she said, what I said... Whoo for drama.
WHORE: Brian, I dont ask for you to acknowlege me, or even care. I just want to tell you. I'm an idiot. I hate myself for it. I hate everytime I think of it, how stupid I was and how much I regret losing you. I know your happy and I really do think its great, I"m happy for you. I know you told me never to talk to you again, and I want to respect that as much as I can, but I just want you to know I am truely sorry. Sorry I was stupid and blind, and I couldn't see how caring you were. I was so scared of letting you in, that I pushed you away. And I regret it. Its seems as though whenever life is hardest, you turn to those you trust the most, and not being able to turn to you is the hardest thing ever. I dont expect you to even read this, I know you hate me, but all I want you to know is I'm sorry, for everything. These past few months I've seem how important friends are. Its hard to find someone to trust. From being stolen from to abandoned in the middle of the city in the middle of the night, I see how much you actually cared. You offered everythign you could to try and make me happy, and I could never do the same. Your an amazing person, and an even more amazing friend. As I go deeper and deeper into the mess I've made my life, its harder and harder to find people to talk to. Some people act like they listen, but you can tell they dont care. Its hard to reach for help when nobody is there to grab your hand. And its my fault. I'm scared to tell people how I feel, because they'll use it against me, I dont trust them. But, for some reason I trusted you. I still do, which is part of what it was so hard losing you as a friend. Knowing theres someone out there I could tell everything to, but not being able to. Knowing theres someone who can help pick me up, and not being able to tell them. These past few months, I've lost almost everything, My family, my friends, my job, and now a place to live. And its karma I know it. Its my fault for hurting you, and other people. I dont know where to go, I dont know who to talk to, so I "talk" to you. Even though you hate me and don't care, its somewhat reassuring that Your still out there and your making people happy. It means theres still someone who makes people laugh, makes people happy. The world can't be all that bad if theres peopel like you. I dont expect you to care about any of this, and I hate telling you this, I hate telling people about my burdons, but I can't do this anymore. I can't smile in front of everyone and go home and cry, I'm living a lie, but i can't stop. Drowning myself with anti-depressants and sleeping pills covers up a few things for a few hours of sleep, But its not ok. I've hit thebottom, and I've been so scared to let anyone in that I've pushed everyone away. I'm so sorry that I ever hurt you. Sometimes i wish that I had never met you, just so you would never have to deal with me, never have to have been hurt. I would do anything to take back hurting you. I"m not saying I want you back in my life, I'm too scared of hurting you again, and I dont expect you to ever speak to me. I just hate myself so much for losing such a good friend. It kills me to think I had a person who cared, who I could call in the middle of the night crying who could always make me smile. I"ve lost it. Its my fault. I hate myself for it. Your an amazing person, Brian. Dont ever lose who you are. Dont let anyone take away how you look at things. You make people smile, laugh and bring out the best in people. I just sit here crying, knowing that I've fucked up, I couldn't have asked for a better friend,a nd I took it for grantid. I'm sorry for everything I've ever done, I dont ask for forgiveness, I dont want it. Your better off without me in your life. Your happy. I want you to stay that way. I just want you to know that you make people happy, your an amazing person, you care for so many people and always put them first. Your selfless. People like you are hard to find. Impossible almost. Your an amazing friend and person, anyone is lucky to have you in they're life. I hope everythin is going perfect for you, you deserve it. You truely are a gift to your friends and family. Dont ever let anyone make you think anything else.
So Brian read that and laughed all the way through it, when he finished he closed the window and said "Well that was awesomely pathetic." I asked "Arent you going to reply it?" he said "No, its not worth two seconds of my time."... Well for the next few days she wouldnt stop trying to make contact with him & I finally said "Okay this needs to stop, please email her." He asked me to reply and this is what I said:
ME: Brian doesnt have access to a computer & asked me to reply your messages. I want to say that I really feel for you, and the situation you are in sucks. Im sorry you are going through a hard time, and I hope things get better for you. That being said, Im going to be real with you and let you know exactly what is going on, Im sorry if it comes across as mean but I want to be honest. I'll answer these questions you asked first.
"I dont know where I stand with you anymore. I apologized as much as I could and you accepted my friend request. So can I talk to you now? Or am I still not allowed to? If I have a problem can I call you? Whats the deal?"
You dont stand anywhere with him. You are just part of his past. You apologized but that doesnt change what you did. He didnt accept your request, I did bc I thought he would want that. You can not talk to him again, he asked you not to speak to him and he meant it. If you have a problem you have many other friends who Im sure would be willing to help you. Brian is not one of them. He is no longer your support system, and he doesnt want to be your shoulder to cry on. The deal is you broke his heart, he wants nothing to do with you.... and every time you try to speak to him again it fucks his life up even more. He is over you, his life is completely in a different place. This happened a really long time ago, he is over it and you should be too. He does not think of you, he does not find you valuable in any way. That isnt to say that you arent valuable in general, but you really messed things up with him, and its over. The past is the past and there is no reason or motivation for him to make you a part of his present. His life with me is freakin awesome and if you became a part of his life it would screw everything up. Do you really think he wants to spend his nights dealing with you and your problems? There is a reason you are exes, and there is a reason he hasnt thought of you or talked to you in months. You arent good for him in any way.
I realize that he is amazing, and that he cared for you quite a bit and that you miss that. I would too. Brian is an incredible man he is everything Ive ever wanted and more. He is the most caring, thoughtful, sweet, hard working, motivated, encouraging, loving and protective person I know and it does suck for you that you threw that away. But he has changed and grown so much over the last year, he has come a long way from when you knew him. He has a challenging full time job, lives in his own house instead of staying on peoples couches, he no longer spends all his time and money on drugs, and he has a whole new set of family and friends. He has goals and dreams... he is a wonderful man. He is a completely whole and happy person and for the sake of our relationship and who he is becoming I cannot encourage him to get involved in your life, especially when he doesnt want to. I feel bad because I know what its like to lose a friend, but at the same time I love my life with him and if you all the sudden became a part of it it would make us both miserable. Neither one of us wants to imagine the drama and annoyances it would cause to have you calling everytime you needed someone to vent to. I'm not saying your problems arent valid and you dont truly have hardships but why would Bry want to sacrifice time spent with me to play councilor for an ex?
Especially when the last time you talked it was so you could tell him you had fucked some random guy youd just met. It is completely inappropriate to talk to an ex about something like that, especially when you were his first. I dont want to see situations like that in the future where you try to play mind games with him. It will irritate the hell out of me because I respect Brian, you do not. When you respect someone and care about them you realize where the boundaries are and you dont cross them. Calling him to talk about your boy problems was way out of line. Did you even think of how that might effect him before you did it? Luckily he was over you and it didnt hurt him but if he wasnt that would have killed him to know that he wasnt good enough for you but some random dude was. That situation alone is enough to convince me that you cannot be good for Brian. He is my love and I want to protect him and make his life wonderful, and from my perspective you can only damage things.
Please stop writing him letters, writing about him in bulletins and blogs. Your friendship with him has been over a long time, stop being so attatched, take a breath and forget him. This bullshit you sent him is completely rediculous:
"Brian: I have to apologize the most to you. I dont think I could ever expect you to forgive me for anything I did. Part of me doesn't want you to... But the other part still has me trying to remember your number when I'm alone and need to talk to someone. Your were the acctual "Perfect" boyfriend. You never told me I was dumb, or ugly, or treated me bad in any way. I took it for grantid how you smiled at me when you saw me. I took for grantid how you would call me just so say hi, or to say goodnight and wish me sweet dreams. Or how you would do goofy things like try to hold my hand like wall-E and make weird noises that made me laugh. I dont think I've ever had a better guy, and I lost it. I was so scared to let you into my life, to have you close to me, I was too afraid to get hurt again, but in the long run it hurt me more. I lost an amazing boyfriend, and an even better best friend. I dont know what I could ever do to make things better, or if I even could. I doubt all the sandwhiches in the world could rebuild the friendship we had, but it could be a start."
There is nothing in the world that can repair your "friendship" because you werent ever a real friend to him. He may have been an amazing friend to you but no friend hurts someone the way you hurt Brian. He gave you his heart and you trampled it. That was days ago, and hes over it, and this is such old news that it seems like its happening on a different planet. Not to mention that Brian is REALLY choosy about who he allows to be a part of his life. From what Ive seen and heard you dont fit the profile. Your myspace is full of pictures of you in your underwear sticking your ass out. You work at a strip club. You take vicoden to deal with your problems instead of growing up and making the best of your situation. You arent the type of person we want in our life. I dont want my best friend hanging out with a stripper who has a history of fucking with his feelings. No way.
I'm not trying to be mean, Im just saying youve made your choices and you have to live with them. Its the same for everyone. Brian is in a really good place, because of your history you cannot offer him anything good and you need to let go your hopes of working things out with him. I am sorry about your situation and I wish you the best, but please stay out of our lives and do not attemt to contact him again.
HER REPLY: Same respect to you: But you know nothing of me and how I treated Brian. Speaking to me as if you know me is insulting, saying I work at a strip club, I fuck people I just meet, etc is a total lie. I'm not a stripper, I dont fuck around, and I cared about Brian. I have every right to talk about him as much as I want, no matter how much you dont like it. He is a part of my past, as I am his, I understand that. I'm not asking to be in his life again, I dont want to be. The one thing I ask from him, and you, is to let him speak. Let him tell me these things. He can check his own messages, and reply in his own words. Let him have his privacy, but the message I sent was intended for him and him alone. If he wants to let you read it, thats his choice. But do not speak to me for him, he is an adult. If he doesn't want to say anything, thats fine. He doesn't have to. If he wants to tell me he hates me and never wants to hear my name again, thats fine. But let him do it.
As far as I'm concerned hes not even Brian anymore. Nobody thinks he is.
MY REPLY: Oh my freaking lord you did not listen. He asked me to send something along the lines of "Fucking disappear, bitch". Is that better for you? I do know how you treated him because he has told me and I watched it when he was still talking to you. He has his privacy, I didnt read & reply the message for him... he read it and said "this isnt worth my time, Im not replying" in fact he laughed and called you pathetic as he read it. But I asked him to reply because Im tired of hearing about you. If I never have to think about you again it will be too soon.
I dont have to know you to say the things I said. You do work at a strip club, everyone knows that so dont try to lie your way out of it. You made sure to tell all of his friends so that they would tell him. You did fuck that guy I was sitting right next to Brian listening to your sobbing ass when you called him that night. Oh and yeah you definately cared about Brian by sleeping with one of his closest friends. I was not trying to be mean in anything I said before... I was being honest. But now Im sick of this shit. You have no place speaking to him.... so dont.
Yes he is different. Hes a hell of a lot better if you ask me. He is way more mature and has his life straight. You people dont take two seconds to get to know him you just assume he is changed for the worst. If you had the opportunity to talk to him for two fucking minutes youd be amazed at how wonderful he is. So shut the fuck up.
If you dont consider him Brian anymore then whats the point of trying to talk to him?
HER REPLY: Its sooo funny how ignorent you are. I cant stop laughing at you
HAHAHA yeah, I didnt find it necessary to reply. She misspelled the word she was trying to insult me with, isnt that enough satisfaction for me? Priceless! I'm glad all this drama is over, and Brian and I got a good laugh out of it so thats awesome.... Hopefully she wont be trying to start anything else anytime soon.
WHORE: Brian, I dont ask for you to acknowlege me, or even care. I just want to tell you. I'm an idiot. I hate myself for it. I hate everytime I think of it, how stupid I was and how much I regret losing you. I know your happy and I really do think its great, I"m happy for you. I know you told me never to talk to you again, and I want to respect that as much as I can, but I just want you to know I am truely sorry. Sorry I was stupid and blind, and I couldn't see how caring you were. I was so scared of letting you in, that I pushed you away. And I regret it. Its seems as though whenever life is hardest, you turn to those you trust the most, and not being able to turn to you is the hardest thing ever. I dont expect you to even read this, I know you hate me, but all I want you to know is I'm sorry, for everything. These past few months I've seem how important friends are. Its hard to find someone to trust. From being stolen from to abandoned in the middle of the city in the middle of the night, I see how much you actually cared. You offered everythign you could to try and make me happy, and I could never do the same. Your an amazing person, and an even more amazing friend. As I go deeper and deeper into the mess I've made my life, its harder and harder to find people to talk to. Some people act like they listen, but you can tell they dont care. Its hard to reach for help when nobody is there to grab your hand. And its my fault. I'm scared to tell people how I feel, because they'll use it against me, I dont trust them. But, for some reason I trusted you. I still do, which is part of what it was so hard losing you as a friend. Knowing theres someone out there I could tell everything to, but not being able to. Knowing theres someone who can help pick me up, and not being able to tell them. These past few months, I've lost almost everything, My family, my friends, my job, and now a place to live. And its karma I know it. Its my fault for hurting you, and other people. I dont know where to go, I dont know who to talk to, so I "talk" to you. Even though you hate me and don't care, its somewhat reassuring that Your still out there and your making people happy. It means theres still someone who makes people laugh, makes people happy. The world can't be all that bad if theres peopel like you. I dont expect you to care about any of this, and I hate telling you this, I hate telling people about my burdons, but I can't do this anymore. I can't smile in front of everyone and go home and cry, I'm living a lie, but i can't stop. Drowning myself with anti-depressants and sleeping pills covers up a few things for a few hours of sleep, But its not ok. I've hit thebottom, and I've been so scared to let anyone in that I've pushed everyone away. I'm so sorry that I ever hurt you. Sometimes i wish that I had never met you, just so you would never have to deal with me, never have to have been hurt. I would do anything to take back hurting you. I"m not saying I want you back in my life, I'm too scared of hurting you again, and I dont expect you to ever speak to me. I just hate myself so much for losing such a good friend. It kills me to think I had a person who cared, who I could call in the middle of the night crying who could always make me smile. I"ve lost it. Its my fault. I hate myself for it. Your an amazing person, Brian. Dont ever lose who you are. Dont let anyone take away how you look at things. You make people smile, laugh and bring out the best in people. I just sit here crying, knowing that I've fucked up, I couldn't have asked for a better friend,a nd I took it for grantid. I'm sorry for everything I've ever done, I dont ask for forgiveness, I dont want it. Your better off without me in your life. Your happy. I want you to stay that way. I just want you to know that you make people happy, your an amazing person, you care for so many people and always put them first. Your selfless. People like you are hard to find. Impossible almost. Your an amazing friend and person, anyone is lucky to have you in they're life. I hope everythin is going perfect for you, you deserve it. You truely are a gift to your friends and family. Dont ever let anyone make you think anything else.
So Brian read that and laughed all the way through it, when he finished he closed the window and said "Well that was awesomely pathetic." I asked "Arent you going to reply it?" he said "No, its not worth two seconds of my time."... Well for the next few days she wouldnt stop trying to make contact with him & I finally said "Okay this needs to stop, please email her." He asked me to reply and this is what I said:
ME: Brian doesnt have access to a computer & asked me to reply your messages. I want to say that I really feel for you, and the situation you are in sucks. Im sorry you are going through a hard time, and I hope things get better for you. That being said, Im going to be real with you and let you know exactly what is going on, Im sorry if it comes across as mean but I want to be honest. I'll answer these questions you asked first.
"I dont know where I stand with you anymore. I apologized as much as I could and you accepted my friend request. So can I talk to you now? Or am I still not allowed to? If I have a problem can I call you? Whats the deal?"
You dont stand anywhere with him. You are just part of his past. You apologized but that doesnt change what you did. He didnt accept your request, I did bc I thought he would want that. You can not talk to him again, he asked you not to speak to him and he meant it. If you have a problem you have many other friends who Im sure would be willing to help you. Brian is not one of them. He is no longer your support system, and he doesnt want to be your shoulder to cry on. The deal is you broke his heart, he wants nothing to do with you.... and every time you try to speak to him again it fucks his life up even more. He is over you, his life is completely in a different place. This happened a really long time ago, he is over it and you should be too. He does not think of you, he does not find you valuable in any way. That isnt to say that you arent valuable in general, but you really messed things up with him, and its over. The past is the past and there is no reason or motivation for him to make you a part of his present. His life with me is freakin awesome and if you became a part of his life it would screw everything up. Do you really think he wants to spend his nights dealing with you and your problems? There is a reason you are exes, and there is a reason he hasnt thought of you or talked to you in months. You arent good for him in any way.
I realize that he is amazing, and that he cared for you quite a bit and that you miss that. I would too. Brian is an incredible man he is everything Ive ever wanted and more. He is the most caring, thoughtful, sweet, hard working, motivated, encouraging, loving and protective person I know and it does suck for you that you threw that away. But he has changed and grown so much over the last year, he has come a long way from when you knew him. He has a challenging full time job, lives in his own house instead of staying on peoples couches, he no longer spends all his time and money on drugs, and he has a whole new set of family and friends. He has goals and dreams... he is a wonderful man. He is a completely whole and happy person and for the sake of our relationship and who he is becoming I cannot encourage him to get involved in your life, especially when he doesnt want to. I feel bad because I know what its like to lose a friend, but at the same time I love my life with him and if you all the sudden became a part of it it would make us both miserable. Neither one of us wants to imagine the drama and annoyances it would cause to have you calling everytime you needed someone to vent to. I'm not saying your problems arent valid and you dont truly have hardships but why would Bry want to sacrifice time spent with me to play councilor for an ex?
Especially when the last time you talked it was so you could tell him you had fucked some random guy youd just met. It is completely inappropriate to talk to an ex about something like that, especially when you were his first. I dont want to see situations like that in the future where you try to play mind games with him. It will irritate the hell out of me because I respect Brian, you do not. When you respect someone and care about them you realize where the boundaries are and you dont cross them. Calling him to talk about your boy problems was way out of line. Did you even think of how that might effect him before you did it? Luckily he was over you and it didnt hurt him but if he wasnt that would have killed him to know that he wasnt good enough for you but some random dude was. That situation alone is enough to convince me that you cannot be good for Brian. He is my love and I want to protect him and make his life wonderful, and from my perspective you can only damage things.
Please stop writing him letters, writing about him in bulletins and blogs. Your friendship with him has been over a long time, stop being so attatched, take a breath and forget him. This bullshit you sent him is completely rediculous:
"Brian: I have to apologize the most to you. I dont think I could ever expect you to forgive me for anything I did. Part of me doesn't want you to... But the other part still has me trying to remember your number when I'm alone and need to talk to someone. Your were the acctual "Perfect" boyfriend. You never told me I was dumb, or ugly, or treated me bad in any way. I took it for grantid how you smiled at me when you saw me. I took for grantid how you would call me just so say hi, or to say goodnight and wish me sweet dreams. Or how you would do goofy things like try to hold my hand like wall-E and make weird noises that made me laugh. I dont think I've ever had a better guy, and I lost it. I was so scared to let you into my life, to have you close to me, I was too afraid to get hurt again, but in the long run it hurt me more. I lost an amazing boyfriend, and an even better best friend. I dont know what I could ever do to make things better, or if I even could. I doubt all the sandwhiches in the world could rebuild the friendship we had, but it could be a start."
There is nothing in the world that can repair your "friendship" because you werent ever a real friend to him. He may have been an amazing friend to you but no friend hurts someone the way you hurt Brian. He gave you his heart and you trampled it. That was days ago, and hes over it, and this is such old news that it seems like its happening on a different planet. Not to mention that Brian is REALLY choosy about who he allows to be a part of his life. From what Ive seen and heard you dont fit the profile. Your myspace is full of pictures of you in your underwear sticking your ass out. You work at a strip club. You take vicoden to deal with your problems instead of growing up and making the best of your situation. You arent the type of person we want in our life. I dont want my best friend hanging out with a stripper who has a history of fucking with his feelings. No way.
I'm not trying to be mean, Im just saying youve made your choices and you have to live with them. Its the same for everyone. Brian is in a really good place, because of your history you cannot offer him anything good and you need to let go your hopes of working things out with him. I am sorry about your situation and I wish you the best, but please stay out of our lives and do not attemt to contact him again.
HER REPLY: Same respect to you: But you know nothing of me and how I treated Brian. Speaking to me as if you know me is insulting, saying I work at a strip club, I fuck people I just meet, etc is a total lie. I'm not a stripper, I dont fuck around, and I cared about Brian. I have every right to talk about him as much as I want, no matter how much you dont like it. He is a part of my past, as I am his, I understand that. I'm not asking to be in his life again, I dont want to be. The one thing I ask from him, and you, is to let him speak. Let him tell me these things. He can check his own messages, and reply in his own words. Let him have his privacy, but the message I sent was intended for him and him alone. If he wants to let you read it, thats his choice. But do not speak to me for him, he is an adult. If he doesn't want to say anything, thats fine. He doesn't have to. If he wants to tell me he hates me and never wants to hear my name again, thats fine. But let him do it.
As far as I'm concerned hes not even Brian anymore. Nobody thinks he is.
MY REPLY: Oh my freaking lord you did not listen. He asked me to send something along the lines of "Fucking disappear, bitch". Is that better for you? I do know how you treated him because he has told me and I watched it when he was still talking to you. He has his privacy, I didnt read & reply the message for him... he read it and said "this isnt worth my time, Im not replying" in fact he laughed and called you pathetic as he read it. But I asked him to reply because Im tired of hearing about you. If I never have to think about you again it will be too soon.
I dont have to know you to say the things I said. You do work at a strip club, everyone knows that so dont try to lie your way out of it. You made sure to tell all of his friends so that they would tell him. You did fuck that guy I was sitting right next to Brian listening to your sobbing ass when you called him that night. Oh and yeah you definately cared about Brian by sleeping with one of his closest friends. I was not trying to be mean in anything I said before... I was being honest. But now Im sick of this shit. You have no place speaking to him.... so dont.
Yes he is different. Hes a hell of a lot better if you ask me. He is way more mature and has his life straight. You people dont take two seconds to get to know him you just assume he is changed for the worst. If you had the opportunity to talk to him for two fucking minutes youd be amazed at how wonderful he is. So shut the fuck up.
If you dont consider him Brian anymore then whats the point of trying to talk to him?
HER REPLY: Its sooo funny how ignorent you are. I cant stop laughing at you
HAHAHA yeah, I didnt find it necessary to reply. She misspelled the word she was trying to insult me with, isnt that enough satisfaction for me? Priceless! I'm glad all this drama is over, and Brian and I got a good laugh out of it so thats awesome.... Hopefully she wont be trying to start anything else anytime soon.
Good luck. Thanks for the entertainment.