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nice tush

your pics are stunning....got me all hot and bothered before bedtime

Can't wait to read your stories! And I can't wait to see the new pictures! Yippie!

Hey sweet cheeks, every time you feel down just think, well hey, at least my buddy Viva wants to bang me!! That should perk you up or at least maybe make you think of something else! lol

My fav depeche mode song is But Not Tonight-when I was a kid I used toplay it when I would DJ on the high school radio station WSDP 88.1 check and see if you cant still get it for me. It was cool we were the only alt radio station in detroit for a while.

But not tonight-
Oh God, its raining
But Im not complaining
Its filling me up
With new life

The stars in the sky
Bring tears to my eyes
Theyre lighting my way
Tonight

And I havent felt so alive
In years

Just for a day
On a day like today
Ill get away from
This constant debauchery

The wind in my hair
Makes me so aware
How good it is to live
Tonight

And I havent felt so alive
In years

The moon
Is shining in the sky
Reminding me
Of so many other nights
But theyre not like tonight

Oh God, its raining
And Im not containing
My pleasure at being
So wet
Here on my own
All on my own
How good it feels to be alone
Tonight

And I havent felt so alive
In years

The moon
Is shining in the sky
Reminding me
Of so many other nights
When my eyes have been so red
Ive been mistaken for dead
But not tonight

It's always scary and exciting to think about disappearing into the world. I've done it a couple times. I moved to New Jersey with one of my friends. We stayed in his dads house, I slept on the sofa. We ate bread and eggs and drank water. His dad would drink a bottle of wine every night, and smoke two packs of cigarrettes and never stop talking until he passed out. I went back to Cali to visit and got back at 11pm on Sept. 10, the year the towers fell. My friend woke me up saying we were being bombed. The weirdest thing is that I was supposed to leave at 11pm from Cali, but chose to change my flight earlier. If I kept it, I would have been flying into JFK or just landing when everything happened. It was an amazing three months, and then I realized what I missed in Cali, so I ended up going back.

I wouldn't have changed it. Now I'm in massive debt and living in Washington, but I still wouldn't change it. Each moment strings together the next paths we come across. We have to make bold jumps and sacrifices at times, for ourselves and others. It is always good to get away, but it's not running away, it's running forward. You can never run away. The world is round, and each step you take away from where you are, just brings you closer to the same spot in that same direction.

Don't be afriad, be adventerous. Wherever you decide to go will be hard at first, it can even be exhausting. The world will never move though. Each location shall remain, with more buildings and people standing on them, and you can always return from whence you came.

I have always felt it is best to adventure early in a childs life, than later, before the attachment of location becomes etched into them. I want my daughter to feel free, and never feel trapped, which is one of the reasons I came up to Washington. The concrete jungles of So. Cali are wicked and consuming. There is so much more open space and nature. The year and a half I've spent here have been torturous, but I know if I stick through it, and allow Time to tick away in his evil game, then I will prevail, and my daughter will with me. Our children grow through our strength, just as we grew through ours. And when it's just us taking care of them, then we have to work double at times, which can put even more pressures upon our already chaotic lives. You will find someone who will love your daughter with all of their heart, just as they will love you.

Sometimes a matter of fear, adventure, sacrifice, and leaving what we have become so accustomed to is what it takes. Each step leads closer to the path we so desire......

It's just the ability to take those first steps that's the hard part most of the time, especially when it's not just us on the ride.

You know I'm around to help in any way, never hesitate to talk.

~J~

yeah i know what you mean. when i get down i'm all the way down and it's like i lack the desire to pull myself out. eventually though my head will get straightened out and everything will be fine. i hope you have agreat week as well!!

also not meaning to pry or anything but how have you said too much?

I could eat you up

i hope everything works out for you and whoever this extremely lucky person is!!!

very nice very nice

my favourite saved by the bell episode was when jessi had the drug addiction..

*im so excited...im soooo scared*

i still dont know how i feel about that show being on adult swim though..its not a cartoon!

glad to here there's more to come. you can't top a pretty girl who can write. i'll be on the look out for sure!!

very cool poem, and i love the picture of you and the girls

Glad you had a great time in OH. I was raised by uber Roman Catholics so I can relate. I alwyas tell my parents now that God doesn't believe in religion. Although I don't believe in what is behind Easter as well, I do enjoy getting with family and seeing the kids go egg hunting.
I love the Zoo. I am sure you saw some of my relatives... They are in the monkey cages.
Hope you have a great week too!

welcome to you and the"girls".

Thought I'd drop a line and say howdy..... umm.... yeah.... so howdy hi and stuff.