i had no idea how much everyone was suffering. i don't know how many ppl read blogs on here or post regularly, but everyday, at some point, i make the effort to read what everyone put up. the biggest complaint and most common struggle that everyone is sharing is unemployment.
individuals upset b/c they are broke, are fighting b/c a lack of money, stressed & depressed b/c they can't make ends meet, or a feeling of worthlessness b/c they feel as if they are not serving a purpose or b/c of having to rely on others.
it breaks my heart. though i know none of these ppl personally anyone with a heart should be able to recognize & relate to disappointment and heartache. it fucking kills me that having a job has become a luxury. i had to deal with the stress of being broke, losing everything, & being in fear of losing the only thing left (which at the time was my apartment) last year. it was the most terrible feeling wanting to do better & just wanting to fucking WORK. not have fun, go on vacation, go out, or go see a movie, but work.
it was so overwhelming and consuming. i'd keep the place tidy and work out...just to feel like i was doing something. applying everywhere and sitting by the phone waiting for a call back or sign that things were going to get better. no matter how good a day was it always ended badly b/c everyday was the same.
i wish there was something i could do to console ppl or help out, but there's only so much you can convey through the internet. i want to respond or give encouraging words, but the truth is that the only REAL relief you can have in a situation like that is finding a way to earn money.
i guess the only thing i can say is that when i was dealing with the same situation i stayed positive.
i took care of myself >i.e. working out everyday & eating well< instead of wallowing in self-pity. b/c being out of shape and feeling out of balance will only add to the stress.
i took care of my home and i was honest about my situation to my landlord (which eventually resulted in moving to a different city & into a smaller place, but it was cheaper).
i accepted help from others graciously & did any return favors i could to show my appreciation. i looked in the paper and put the word out as far as finding odd jobs to make cash even if it didn't seem much b/c every bit count. i donated plasma b/c it assured a small, but steady cash flow.
any extra-curricular activities that required money were cut b/c i needed to get financially stable above everything else and got over the thinking of "i don't have money to do anything fun!'' b/c that's immature and stupid to worry about when you don't have money to pay bills or feed yourself.
i cut coupons & bought food that was cheap. worried about only essential items as far as non-food.
but the most important thing was finding ways to make things easier & focusing on what i had as suppose to what i wanted.
and believe there are ppl all over the world & even in the good ol' fucking usa that have it worse than you. so just cause you can't go to the bar or buy some ganja to smoke it doesn't mean shit b/c there are ppl who are literally homeless or starving.
another thing to look at is see if you really are suffering or bringing it upon yourself. i mean...i believe in karma. if you do fucked up or selfish shit...you will deal with consequences, so don't fool yourself into thinking any harm done goes unpunished. i believe i suffered through that for six months b/c i didn't appreciate how well i was living before then. i took for granted how good and easy my life was. even worse i didn't appreciate the fact that i had a job before losing it. it took me wondering how i was going to eat and losing everything that made my life easy and comfortable to appreciate what i had. even if it was a job.
i do sincerely hope that anyone who is suffering & looking for relief finds it.
i hope that when there is an end to their own personal struggles that they grow from the experience and actually take something from it.
i HOPE that everyone in a bad situation is doing something other than blogging complaints & taking real action to find their own personal happiness.
i also hope that if you are sent words of encouragement or if someone does try to console you that ppl won't take it for granted or act like a cry baby like ''nothing fucking matters'' b/c if that's the case then give the fuck up and stop crying to motherfuckers you barely even know on the internet.
because in the end all anyone can really do is try to be there and help and sometimes the best someone can do is care enough to give their words. let's all try to be on the lookout for each other and help in any way we possibly can.
individuals upset b/c they are broke, are fighting b/c a lack of money, stressed & depressed b/c they can't make ends meet, or a feeling of worthlessness b/c they feel as if they are not serving a purpose or b/c of having to rely on others.
it breaks my heart. though i know none of these ppl personally anyone with a heart should be able to recognize & relate to disappointment and heartache. it fucking kills me that having a job has become a luxury. i had to deal with the stress of being broke, losing everything, & being in fear of losing the only thing left (which at the time was my apartment) last year. it was the most terrible feeling wanting to do better & just wanting to fucking WORK. not have fun, go on vacation, go out, or go see a movie, but work.
it was so overwhelming and consuming. i'd keep the place tidy and work out...just to feel like i was doing something. applying everywhere and sitting by the phone waiting for a call back or sign that things were going to get better. no matter how good a day was it always ended badly b/c everyday was the same.
i wish there was something i could do to console ppl or help out, but there's only so much you can convey through the internet. i want to respond or give encouraging words, but the truth is that the only REAL relief you can have in a situation like that is finding a way to earn money.
i guess the only thing i can say is that when i was dealing with the same situation i stayed positive.
i took care of myself >i.e. working out everyday & eating well< instead of wallowing in self-pity. b/c being out of shape and feeling out of balance will only add to the stress.
i took care of my home and i was honest about my situation to my landlord (which eventually resulted in moving to a different city & into a smaller place, but it was cheaper).
i accepted help from others graciously & did any return favors i could to show my appreciation. i looked in the paper and put the word out as far as finding odd jobs to make cash even if it didn't seem much b/c every bit count. i donated plasma b/c it assured a small, but steady cash flow.
any extra-curricular activities that required money were cut b/c i needed to get financially stable above everything else and got over the thinking of "i don't have money to do anything fun!'' b/c that's immature and stupid to worry about when you don't have money to pay bills or feed yourself.
i cut coupons & bought food that was cheap. worried about only essential items as far as non-food.
but the most important thing was finding ways to make things easier & focusing on what i had as suppose to what i wanted.
and believe there are ppl all over the world & even in the good ol' fucking usa that have it worse than you. so just cause you can't go to the bar or buy some ganja to smoke it doesn't mean shit b/c there are ppl who are literally homeless or starving.
another thing to look at is see if you really are suffering or bringing it upon yourself. i mean...i believe in karma. if you do fucked up or selfish shit...you will deal with consequences, so don't fool yourself into thinking any harm done goes unpunished. i believe i suffered through that for six months b/c i didn't appreciate how well i was living before then. i took for granted how good and easy my life was. even worse i didn't appreciate the fact that i had a job before losing it. it took me wondering how i was going to eat and losing everything that made my life easy and comfortable to appreciate what i had. even if it was a job.
i do sincerely hope that anyone who is suffering & looking for relief finds it.
i hope that when there is an end to their own personal struggles that they grow from the experience and actually take something from it.
i HOPE that everyone in a bad situation is doing something other than blogging complaints & taking real action to find their own personal happiness.
i also hope that if you are sent words of encouragement or if someone does try to console you that ppl won't take it for granted or act like a cry baby like ''nothing fucking matters'' b/c if that's the case then give the fuck up and stop crying to motherfuckers you barely even know on the internet.
because in the end all anyone can really do is try to be there and help and sometimes the best someone can do is care enough to give their words. let's all try to be on the lookout for each other and help in any way we possibly can.
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