well long time no vent.
i feel completely fucked. not in the good after sex awesome way.. but just FUCKED. I've been seeing that older guy for a bit now.. and i feel like I'm putting way more into this relationship than he is. i care about him.. but i don't see anything more than what is going on now happening.. which this is our "date" i text him if he wants to hang.. hour or two later he says "sure baby, I'm kinda tired though but come over" so i come over.. we watch a movie.. i have a few crown and cranberry and pineapple juice.. [its delicious] then he has to be in bed by oh maybe 1030 at the latest cuz he is an old fart who is always tired. I'm sorry bro... ur a golf pro... NOTHING SPECIAL. we have not had sex in 3 weeks.. I'm beyond frustrated. cuz god forbid i keep him up too late.. i mean he admitted to keeping his distance so he can sleep. WTF? so now i feel like dumping him.. i mean after not even being together for oh maybe 2 months and I'm feeling iffy on our relationship I'm feeling like i should kick him to the curb. maybe its a bitchy thing to do but I'm kind of a bitch. and still hung up on my asshole ex who decided amidst my frustration with life, to tell me he misses me. WHAT THE FUCK.
im not sure what to do. maybe be single and do me. treat my ex like he did me for a few months and have him be my sex toy..? i can do that.. but that may make me fall in love with him again.. or just have my love come back to the surface for him.
anyways.. work is so slow.. i saved a turtle.. made shitty money.. took random pics of myself and my friend... i drink.. drink more.. went to warped tour on friday which was AMAZING. i love senses fail soooo i was mighty happy to see them again.. and taking back sunday for the first time. they were awesome. i recently went vegetarian.. its not as hard as i thought it would and having to explain why i chose to annoys the fuck out of me. but I'm happy i did cuz i actually enjoy the food. i also FINALLY saw my best friend and my niece.. only my niece cuz I've been best friends with her mama since 3rd grade.. so my niece is a cute lil black baby.. don't hate
pics pics pics yesss
he was so cute. mr turtle.
work bores me.
&bores me more
sexy new cell phone case.
i love them so much.
happy 4th!
warped was awesome.
my kitty is pretty. <3.
xo.
i feel completely fucked. not in the good after sex awesome way.. but just FUCKED. I've been seeing that older guy for a bit now.. and i feel like I'm putting way more into this relationship than he is. i care about him.. but i don't see anything more than what is going on now happening.. which this is our "date" i text him if he wants to hang.. hour or two later he says "sure baby, I'm kinda tired though but come over" so i come over.. we watch a movie.. i have a few crown and cranberry and pineapple juice.. [its delicious] then he has to be in bed by oh maybe 1030 at the latest cuz he is an old fart who is always tired. I'm sorry bro... ur a golf pro... NOTHING SPECIAL. we have not had sex in 3 weeks.. I'm beyond frustrated. cuz god forbid i keep him up too late.. i mean he admitted to keeping his distance so he can sleep. WTF? so now i feel like dumping him.. i mean after not even being together for oh maybe 2 months and I'm feeling iffy on our relationship I'm feeling like i should kick him to the curb. maybe its a bitchy thing to do but I'm kind of a bitch. and still hung up on my asshole ex who decided amidst my frustration with life, to tell me he misses me. WHAT THE FUCK.
im not sure what to do. maybe be single and do me. treat my ex like he did me for a few months and have him be my sex toy..? i can do that.. but that may make me fall in love with him again.. or just have my love come back to the surface for him.
anyways.. work is so slow.. i saved a turtle.. made shitty money.. took random pics of myself and my friend... i drink.. drink more.. went to warped tour on friday which was AMAZING. i love senses fail soooo i was mighty happy to see them again.. and taking back sunday for the first time. they were awesome. i recently went vegetarian.. its not as hard as i thought it would and having to explain why i chose to annoys the fuck out of me. but I'm happy i did cuz i actually enjoy the food. i also FINALLY saw my best friend and my niece.. only my niece cuz I've been best friends with her mama since 3rd grade.. so my niece is a cute lil black baby.. don't hate
pics pics pics yesss
he was so cute. mr turtle.
work bores me.
&bores me more
sexy new cell phone case.
i love them so much.
happy 4th!
warped was awesome.
my kitty is pretty. <3.
xo.
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thanks tho ha