Yesterday was fun. I got to go to Global with Aeryka and had my first mojito (sorry if I spelled it wrong). They are soooooo good, better then my favoriate drink Long Islands. They so remind me of the nice beautiful summer nights, or fall nights. I was talk to Aeryka about it and she agreed with me. I went on saying its like walking in a garden of flowers, more so after a nice spring/summer rainfall. My taste buds and stomach was very happy with me and they wanted more. So Aeryka and I got 5 mojitos and Artichoke dip. That was just as good but I think I am still in love with my mom's homed dip of the same kind. (I sooooo owe her 4 mojitos and a little dish from Global)
So after Global Aeryka and I went back to the apt. and drank a bit more before going up to Charlie's room. But, once we got there I was getting a bit to slappy happy, only because when one person is acting looney it feeds into my energy supply if you will. (I know that was crappy wording.)
Anyways near the end of it (right before we were going to hit the bars) somebody found jay pacing outside of Charlie's apt. So I quickly called for Charlie and told him Jay (the supervisor type person of our building) was pacing all over and he quickly turned off his music and went and let jay in. Jay told us that he saw smoking on the balcony (which i will say is a given) and eggs being thrown. Granted on the egg part I have my own defense on it, but I am not going to rant about it here.
Continuing on. Jay got everybodies information and he sat down at the table and said "I dont know whats going to happen, but I have to fill out a report just so you guys know." Thinking back to my freshman year when I got in trouble, HUGE trouble (drinking, smoking and candles) for stuff I wasn't supposed to do I turned to jay and said "oh I probably (maybe I didnt use that word I cannot remember) know what is going to happen. A report is going to get filled out, and we are going to have a sit down conversation about what has or is going to happen to us." Now that is al lI said this is my own opinion of what is going to happen. Jay nodded his head and was like yeah. After that he got up and left.
I didnt know at the time but Aeryka went outside in the hall with Charlie and as soon as jay left they came in, I saw Kevin at the door (mutal friend of mine and Whitney's) I said "hi" to him and waved. Aeryka then went and came up to be and decided to bitch at me for talking to jay about what I thought was going to happen. I am not going to state the whole coversation but in a nut shell she basically told me:
"You dont listen"
"You never going to change"
"You dont know anything"
"Stop acting like your better then everybody."
"You dont know anything because I have been there with ....... (leaving it out for her respect)"
Basically that everything she said to me while she was raising her voice, moving all over the place like somebody would when they are very much aggrivated/pissed off at you. Myself the whole time I said there calm as I could be, listened to her every word (granted I didnt get much say because she wouldn't stop to say my part. Only got one sentence in at a time, over her own voice.) I told her:
"I am listening to you."
"I understand where you are coming from"
"I understand that you do not like it when I sit there and talk to a higher authority, but that is my own way of dealing things sorry if you dont like it."
"You have no right to say Id ont know anything, because there will always be somebody above you that will say they know more then you, and you would be in the same position as I am trying to prove your worth."
"Its done and over with, why are you still yelling at me, there is nothing you can do about it now so just stop!"
Thats whole fight, she made me feel like shit. Not because of what she said to me (I am not saying her words were right or my words were right AT ALL), but because she wouldn't let me get a word in anything. She just kept going like a little energizer bunny from hell. I know for one, if she listened to me, she wouldn't have said any of the words she did. But, she closed her mind off to me, plugged her ears up with invisable cotton and kept going. Thats definatly one thing I hate, that will put me over the edge. I tried to end the fight, but she just had to keep going. Thats the only reason why I did go out to the bars with her and everybody else, that is why I left to leave the area. I was willing to let her go out and have her fun, if that ment a moments peace in my weekend. Because honestly the whole weekend was shitty, it really was. Other then the pirate night I went to, and going to Global.
Now, I will say do I feel bad about saying all of this, but this is my own rant, this is how I feel and if somebody is going to sit there and bitch me out because this is wrong to do... I am sorry, and deal with it. I will say i am not trying to make Aeryka look like a bad person at all because she means well. I understand the reason why she did what she did is because she doesn't/didnt want to get her ass into more trouble. Yet, the thing is we were already in trouble, there is nothing that could make the situation worse then it already was, simple words cannot put more flame to the fire. I know she is going to sit here and read this and maybe, just maybe comment to me in person when I get out of work, or comment to me here.
I still care for Aeryka, she knows that we always get into these stupid little fights. It just really hurts me when somebody says to you "You will never learn." thats a low blow. In my eyes thats like saying "Your a fucking loser, you always will be, and because of that you cannot change." Well thats how I heard it, thats how I heard the whole conversation/yelling fit.
I will say though I am willing to sit down with Aeryka and talk to her about what happened. But, if she is to at all make me feel inferrior, or lower then she is, raise her voice. I am getting up and leaving saying the simple words "Talk to me when your calmer please."
Well I think I said it all. Now I wait to see if she read this at all.
So after Global Aeryka and I went back to the apt. and drank a bit more before going up to Charlie's room. But, once we got there I was getting a bit to slappy happy, only because when one person is acting looney it feeds into my energy supply if you will. (I know that was crappy wording.)
Anyways near the end of it (right before we were going to hit the bars) somebody found jay pacing outside of Charlie's apt. So I quickly called for Charlie and told him Jay (the supervisor type person of our building) was pacing all over and he quickly turned off his music and went and let jay in. Jay told us that he saw smoking on the balcony (which i will say is a given) and eggs being thrown. Granted on the egg part I have my own defense on it, but I am not going to rant about it here.
Continuing on. Jay got everybodies information and he sat down at the table and said "I dont know whats going to happen, but I have to fill out a report just so you guys know." Thinking back to my freshman year when I got in trouble, HUGE trouble (drinking, smoking and candles) for stuff I wasn't supposed to do I turned to jay and said "oh I probably (maybe I didnt use that word I cannot remember) know what is going to happen. A report is going to get filled out, and we are going to have a sit down conversation about what has or is going to happen to us." Now that is al lI said this is my own opinion of what is going to happen. Jay nodded his head and was like yeah. After that he got up and left.
I didnt know at the time but Aeryka went outside in the hall with Charlie and as soon as jay left they came in, I saw Kevin at the door (mutal friend of mine and Whitney's) I said "hi" to him and waved. Aeryka then went and came up to be and decided to bitch at me for talking to jay about what I thought was going to happen. I am not going to state the whole coversation but in a nut shell she basically told me:
"You dont listen"
"You never going to change"
"You dont know anything"
"Stop acting like your better then everybody."
"You dont know anything because I have been there with ....... (leaving it out for her respect)"
Basically that everything she said to me while she was raising her voice, moving all over the place like somebody would when they are very much aggrivated/pissed off at you. Myself the whole time I said there calm as I could be, listened to her every word (granted I didnt get much say because she wouldn't stop to say my part. Only got one sentence in at a time, over her own voice.) I told her:
"I am listening to you."
"I understand where you are coming from"
"I understand that you do not like it when I sit there and talk to a higher authority, but that is my own way of dealing things sorry if you dont like it."
"You have no right to say Id ont know anything, because there will always be somebody above you that will say they know more then you, and you would be in the same position as I am trying to prove your worth."
"Its done and over with, why are you still yelling at me, there is nothing you can do about it now so just stop!"
Thats whole fight, she made me feel like shit. Not because of what she said to me (I am not saying her words were right or my words were right AT ALL), but because she wouldn't let me get a word in anything. She just kept going like a little energizer bunny from hell. I know for one, if she listened to me, she wouldn't have said any of the words she did. But, she closed her mind off to me, plugged her ears up with invisable cotton and kept going. Thats definatly one thing I hate, that will put me over the edge. I tried to end the fight, but she just had to keep going. Thats the only reason why I did go out to the bars with her and everybody else, that is why I left to leave the area. I was willing to let her go out and have her fun, if that ment a moments peace in my weekend. Because honestly the whole weekend was shitty, it really was. Other then the pirate night I went to, and going to Global.
Now, I will say do I feel bad about saying all of this, but this is my own rant, this is how I feel and if somebody is going to sit there and bitch me out because this is wrong to do... I am sorry, and deal with it. I will say i am not trying to make Aeryka look like a bad person at all because she means well. I understand the reason why she did what she did is because she doesn't/didnt want to get her ass into more trouble. Yet, the thing is we were already in trouble, there is nothing that could make the situation worse then it already was, simple words cannot put more flame to the fire. I know she is going to sit here and read this and maybe, just maybe comment to me in person when I get out of work, or comment to me here.
I still care for Aeryka, she knows that we always get into these stupid little fights. It just really hurts me when somebody says to you "You will never learn." thats a low blow. In my eyes thats like saying "Your a fucking loser, you always will be, and because of that you cannot change." Well thats how I heard it, thats how I heard the whole conversation/yelling fit.
I will say though I am willing to sit down with Aeryka and talk to her about what happened. But, if she is to at all make me feel inferrior, or lower then she is, raise her voice. I am getting up and leaving saying the simple words "Talk to me when your calmer please."
Well I think I said it all. Now I wait to see if she read this at all.
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Once again, I didn't understand all that you wrote, but it seems you had a row with one of your friend that evening. Maybie shall you put the reactions and words of every one on the account of alcohol. That's what I always do when people have a row... the fault of alcohol, the pressure of work or life...
Well, on the other hand, I think it's not a bad thing to have rows among friends. As long as it is constructive in your relationship, as long as it helps to solve any problem and sure they will improve your relation. But I know sometimes that the words people use can be hard to hear, painful and unadapted to the situation or the person.
Keep both of you in mind that friendship is of great value and of great importance. Let time ease the problem and things will come back to normal.