Over the last month things haven't been easy. Even since my last post, it hasn't gotten any better. This last week has been Espically rough cause it seems I haven't been able to do anything right. It seem everytime I try to talk to someone they are to busy or it feels like I'm bugging them.
The ppl who said they are there for me haven't been. Add work issues (cause my head just hasn't been in it and it's been showing at my job) I've started off today with a metting with the bosses and it wasn't too good. So I'm at the point where I'm starting to say when am I going to catch a break?
I find myself thinking maybe I shold just disappear. From everyone and everything. Tune out the world. With how things have been going as of late I'm sure no one would notice.... sure no one would miss me.
My head is just one big cluster fuck of a mess and I am not myself at all. Not one bit. I can't even fake the smile anymore. I feel defeated. These writing feel like my only release so it doesn't all stay inside...