Well, looks like making a blog is the cool thing to do if you dont want that massive black band going across the whole page.
So Im Jazmyne. I want to be a SuicideGirl, but dont much see that happening, so I figured Id join the site and try to enjoy myself, but basically Im confused beyond all means, the chat hates me and skips about every other letter I type, so I have to type super slow, then when I do talk I get bashed on or ignored, so, dont know how much longer Ill be trying for that one.
In real life, Im pretty happy.
I live in the meth capital of the world with my boyfriend of two+ years, and another couple. Hopefully soon enough we'll be making enough money that we can move out on our own, but not likely because even though we live in the shittiest place possible, its also the most expensive. I really want to move away, probably to Oregon, but the Boyfriend isnt as crazy ready as I am, so I wait.
Im hopelessly in love with my Boy, also known as Dylan, were high school sweethearts, and truly meant for eachother, and in the relationship part of my life I couldnt possibly be happier. We plan to marry when we can afford it.
I have two best friends Alexandra and Kristin, the three of us together = The Bitch Posse.
The problem is that my two best friends are best friends with eachother and Im mostly the third wheel that gets to tag along if Im lucky enough to have them answer my phone calls/texts.
But, whatever. Cant have everything in life.
I work at Rite Aid full time as a cashier/store bitch basically doing a little of everything. I dont much enjoy it there, I love the people I work with, but I feel Im meant for so much more than to work at Rite Aid, unfortunately, I landed this job thanks to a friend and no one else will hire me because of my tattoos and piercings, which is depressing, and I really dont want to take them out, so I deal with it. Also, they dont pay me shit. And thats really hard to deal with.
I have amazing parents, who I hated for years but now am so thankful to have. They are still together after 20+ years and are an inspiration to me.
I have two sisters Brianna and Luella, Brianna is 17, and Luella is 10, they are both amazing, and without them I wouldnt have made it through my childhood/teen years.
Me and Dylan have two cats, Vanilla, and Kissy, two turtles, Spike and Little Foot, and a snake Zen.
Also a ever growing pile of dirty clothes because neither of us ever feel like doing laundry.
When I say Im happy, Im mostly lying because Ive been a pessemist since birth, I went through an intense 6+ year depression that left me with the nasty yet wonderful habbit of cutting, which as Amanda Palmer would say "Even if I quit theres not a chance in hell Id stop," Its saved me a number of times, and Im grateful for it.
Im moody, very moody. I can wake up feeling fantastic, and by lunch time Im crying.
I think too much and realize how shitty the little things are and I let them get me down.
But I love life, and love being alive. Im grateful for every breath. After convincing myself for 6 years that Id be better of dead, its crazy to see what my life has become and imagine what it could have been like for the people Im around now if my suicide attempts had worked.
I love piercings and tattoos. I have 28 piercings, and 7 tattoos, with more added when I get a good check.
Im not anything reallly special, but I am proud to say that I have survived East County and am truly an individual.
I love reading and wish I had more time to do so, I miss the days when I would wake up and start a book and have it finished by the time I went to bed that night. Maybe even two books in that time.
I love music, but I havnt been as into it as I was before, I think this whole graduating, getting a job and growing up thing has really taken its toll on me.
I am currently attending a junior college doing my general ed and soon to be taking classes working towards being a kindergarten teacher, but who knows how long Ill want to do that.
I have a tendency to babble, as Im doing now.
I just want some friends and a good time.
The names Jazmyne.
Addme?
So Im Jazmyne. I want to be a SuicideGirl, but dont much see that happening, so I figured Id join the site and try to enjoy myself, but basically Im confused beyond all means, the chat hates me and skips about every other letter I type, so I have to type super slow, then when I do talk I get bashed on or ignored, so, dont know how much longer Ill be trying for that one.
In real life, Im pretty happy.
I live in the meth capital of the world with my boyfriend of two+ years, and another couple. Hopefully soon enough we'll be making enough money that we can move out on our own, but not likely because even though we live in the shittiest place possible, its also the most expensive. I really want to move away, probably to Oregon, but the Boyfriend isnt as crazy ready as I am, so I wait.
Im hopelessly in love with my Boy, also known as Dylan, were high school sweethearts, and truly meant for eachother, and in the relationship part of my life I couldnt possibly be happier. We plan to marry when we can afford it.
I have two best friends Alexandra and Kristin, the three of us together = The Bitch Posse.
The problem is that my two best friends are best friends with eachother and Im mostly the third wheel that gets to tag along if Im lucky enough to have them answer my phone calls/texts.
But, whatever. Cant have everything in life.
I work at Rite Aid full time as a cashier/store bitch basically doing a little of everything. I dont much enjoy it there, I love the people I work with, but I feel Im meant for so much more than to work at Rite Aid, unfortunately, I landed this job thanks to a friend and no one else will hire me because of my tattoos and piercings, which is depressing, and I really dont want to take them out, so I deal with it. Also, they dont pay me shit. And thats really hard to deal with.
I have amazing parents, who I hated for years but now am so thankful to have. They are still together after 20+ years and are an inspiration to me.
I have two sisters Brianna and Luella, Brianna is 17, and Luella is 10, they are both amazing, and without them I wouldnt have made it through my childhood/teen years.
Me and Dylan have two cats, Vanilla, and Kissy, two turtles, Spike and Little Foot, and a snake Zen.
Also a ever growing pile of dirty clothes because neither of us ever feel like doing laundry.
When I say Im happy, Im mostly lying because Ive been a pessemist since birth, I went through an intense 6+ year depression that left me with the nasty yet wonderful habbit of cutting, which as Amanda Palmer would say "Even if I quit theres not a chance in hell Id stop," Its saved me a number of times, and Im grateful for it.
Im moody, very moody. I can wake up feeling fantastic, and by lunch time Im crying.
I think too much and realize how shitty the little things are and I let them get me down.
But I love life, and love being alive. Im grateful for every breath. After convincing myself for 6 years that Id be better of dead, its crazy to see what my life has become and imagine what it could have been like for the people Im around now if my suicide attempts had worked.
I love piercings and tattoos. I have 28 piercings, and 7 tattoos, with more added when I get a good check.
Im not anything reallly special, but I am proud to say that I have survived East County and am truly an individual.
I love reading and wish I had more time to do so, I miss the days when I would wake up and start a book and have it finished by the time I went to bed that night. Maybe even two books in that time.
I love music, but I havnt been as into it as I was before, I think this whole graduating, getting a job and growing up thing has really taken its toll on me.
I am currently attending a junior college doing my general ed and soon to be taking classes working towards being a kindergarten teacher, but who knows how long Ill want to do that.
I have a tendency to babble, as Im doing now.
I just want some friends and a good time.
The names Jazmyne.
Addme?
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rizzo3000:
heyy thanks for the add, your like the only person i know on here! haha
srunchy:
Hey ....don't worry about the picture thing. My camera and I aren't going anywhere. Whenever you feel you're ready....just let me know and I'm there!