When does the search for closure to a broken heart lead to it's end? When you find that not even a year after she shatters you that she is married to another man. Why these tests, why the pain, the heartbreak, the deprivation of ones love torn asunder and left in pieces in it's wake. I do kinda feel in a poetic mood but I will simply continue typing on and venting out the pain within.
When does the darkness fade? Not the darkness in your heart but the encroaching darkness trapping us from the outside in. [this certainly sounds depressing]
I wish to take into the embrace of those who understand me yet I've found only one and now she is unattainable through any means that are just and right. What do I do? How do I forget the good memories so that I don't miss them? What must I do to remove this agonizing feeling gnawing at my mind. I find no rest, I find no solace from this festering plane of existance. The pain will not, cannot subside on it's own and I have nothing to numb the pain nothing to look forward to. Should I drown myself in alcohol? What do I do..?
The least I got today is an apology, a freaking apology from her. She is sorry, she feels guilty when I tell her what she did and she can do nothing absolutely nothing to aid me. I find it sad that I'm posting this mainly because If I read this it seems to be a cry for help a cry for attention but is it truly? No it's an evocation of pent up feelings that must be released an unending energy that must be spent to dull the insufferable pain caused by the retention of it. With that I do believe I have said enough.
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