Hello again SG-Land, I hope this post finds you well & that all is right in your respective world(s). I honestly have been better, but I've got a few moments now where things aren't too bad, so I wanna at least write something before I get distracted & wander off again, at least in a mental sense... I'm not real good at this, as I've probably mentioned. Being social, communicating with people, participating in a community or group - that's what I'm referring to. I've got a lot of social anxiety & related insecurities as part of my whole Bipolar-II thing, most of which I don't even understand, honestly. "Man, what are you so afraid of?" I used to ask myself all the time in my head. Never could figure that out for some reason. Also, I over-think the livin' Hell out of absolutely everything. Every. Single. Thing. You might have noticed that, even if this post is the 1st you've ever encountered of me (Hi!), but I can't seem to stop doing that either. Point is: even simple messages & responses can feel like a whole mental ordeal to me even when it should be just a quick, almost reflexive reply. I'm trying to work on that, but it's not going real well so far. Hoping everyone will bear with me as I keep working on all my personal bullshit, and I really, really appreciate the interactions, messages & other various acknowledgments of my existence that I've already received from the good people here, it genuinely means a lot, so thank you all so so much.
I hope I can keep my head together long enough to send a few replies I owe some of you - apologies for the delay, but yeah, all that stuff I just said... I also really want to take a stab at doing a Blog Homework thing for this most recent subject, since there are a lot of SG Hopefuls who I'd really love to acknowledge & thank & heap lavish praise upon (hopefully not to the point of being creepy, I always worry about that too) but I want to get it right, make it my best possible. I'm a bit daunted at the prospect, to be honest, because there are a number of amazingly good writers & posters in the community already who do such a great job of highlighting all the best SG has to offer, it's a lot to measure up to. And I'd hate to think it might end up looking like a half-assed attempt on my part. But again, that's just my own bullshit, gotta get over that & do it. Damn - I promise, I'm really not this self-obsessed, and I hate sounding like I am... More to work on, apparently.
Hey, who likes dogs? I mentioned my dog before, right? C'mon Charlie, say "Hi" to all the nice people (again):
Sorry if I already shared this picture in the Pets/Dogs group thread - I don't remember which I've already posted & I have a whole bunch I like to spread all around. I've thought of doing a short blog about Charlie, just to kind of ease my way into (hopefully) posting & blogging more regularly. He doesn't have any amazing superpowers or a fantastical back story like one of those Disney movie dogs, but there's still stuff worth talking about if anyone's interested. What say you: Yes or No? I also thought I might do a quick post on my tattoos. I only have 2 but there's a whole lot to talk about with both. They're both women & they both have names - Melinda & Riley - but they're very different in style & worlds apart in why I got them, what they mean, all that shit... any interest in that post: Yes or No? Also, let me ask, who else gives their tattoos names, and why? I'm always interested in tattoo stories, and dog stories, among other numerous topics. I might do both posts anyway, regardless of how people answer or don't answer, but it'd be nice to know what kind of reception to expect. Hell, if there's anything else you wanna know or want me to post about, feel free to ask me anytime. I obviously don't mind talking about myself, as you might've noticed...
OK, my energy level is crashing now & my stomach has been giving me trouble all day (that's a whole different story/post/whatever), so let me try to wrap this up somehow. Thank you so so much to everyone here who's been so kind, friendly & just generally lovable to me. I just want to say I love you all to pieces & I wish I could drop 10,000 hearts & extravagantly tip every single one of you on every single one of your photos, sets, comments, responses, every damn thing, I'm so completely serious. I wish I could sign up for every Patreon, OnlyFans, MFC, Twitch, ahh, all the other subscription service I'm suddenly forgetting but still totally wish with all my wishy-washy heart that I could possibly support you on, because I think practically everyone I've encountered here so far is absolutely incredible & awesome & fantastic & beautiful & magical & possibly supernatural & more than worthy of supporting in every way, regardless of whether or not it's possible. And the fact that I can't tell this (or something similarly sentimental) to every single one of you every single day is just another reason why I want to really, really overstate it now because I'm not even remotely close to joking - though my choice of words is lighthearted & possibly weird or confusing at times... and my train of thought has pretty much completely gone off the rails & crashed somewhere now, so I better shut up before I start to sound silly. Thank you, I love you, have a terrific night/day, take care of yourselves & take care of each other, please! 'Til next time, all the best from me to you!
🖤 Love, Josh (that's my real name, but you probably figured that out already & now I really sound silly beyond all reason, so this is the end, I really mean it this time, I swear...🖤 )