Hi. I'm ILLHYHLUSTRATOR. I'm an aspiring ILLUSTRATOR.
I grew up near and around Los Angeles most of my life. For a good portion of my youth I lived in the Glendale Area, hanging out in K-town, Echo Park, Glendale areas. Then I moved to Chicago when I was 18, and attended art school out there. I dropped out 5 years later, after living hard and making a slew of bad decisions. I moved back home when my grandmother was battling a type of lymphoma. I transferred into a Los Angeles art school, and my grandmother passed. Since 2011, I've been with the woman with whom I plan to spend the rest of my life with. I dropped out of that school two years after enrolling. It took me until the age of 23 to realize the errors of my ways, experience deep loss, find true love, and realize how quickly the future slips away from oneself.
I currently live in Korea, apart from my friends and my love, staying with my family, trying to change the course of my life with their support and the better opportunities available in our current environment and situation. I used to have an account on this site, when I was 18-21 abouts. I was more interested in the pictures, and the digital sexual environment. Now I am back, because I still enjoy the nudity (I won't lie,) but also the depth of the profiles of a few people on this site. As well as the fact that as I am no longer in an educational art institution, my figure studies must come from online sources in this puritanical country, and this site offers much more in terms of variety and realism in the physical appearances of the models.
I used to obsess over social media. I was concerned with being a part of groups, and having people respond to my comments and presence. Now that I near my 30th year on this planet, I realize and am comfortable with my inability to socialize as others of my generation are able to. I am unconcerned with appearance and image, and after years of poor social decisions, I can now count my closest friends and confidants on one hand. I believe that it is important to be friendly, but on a site such as this, I don't believe that presenting myself in any other way than as I truly am would matter. There are simply too many people here, too varied in appearance, tastes, education, philosophies and political leanings to try and not be myself. And as it stands, I am happy to be able to have such a small group of people who I can trust and confide in and by whom I will always be accepted, no matter the situation.
I tend to be fairly silent on ALL social media. Currently, I struggle with instagram and tumblr, as I understand that in a highly technological and connected atmosphere in illustration and graphic arts, an online presence is the key to attaining an audience for someone disconnected from a gallery scene or academic community such as myself. So I force myself to open up and post semi-regularly on the two platforms in order to get my images into the vast ocean of the internet.
I do like some social interaction online, however. Especially as it pertains to discussions of my interests (cartoons, comics to an extent, some kinds of art more than others, video games, music, and Magic the Gathering.) So I do hope to pick through this community and the various groups and maybe find someone or some people with whom I can talk, discuss, and game.
So where better to be myself, than here, where the models are the very women my love models her own look after and looks to for look inspiration, and where the fans are also those who partake in various "scenes" communities and things outside that of the sphere of the plebian?
With this all said, I enter into this community to stand on the sidelines or maybe even dip a toe into one end of it every now and then.